B.I.T.C.H, Please

Yasmin is leaving this holiday to Terengganu. sad face.. :( On friday, last day of exam, after our moral exam which ended at 8.10 am. I was in school for like an hour so NOT worth waking up for. anyways, i went with Cyn to SMK St. Jo to meet her... and when we got there guess what?? My darling darling friend wasn't even in school yet. We waited at the canteen for her so long that I wanted to hug her and then cekik the life out of her!!  Tsk Tsk Tsk.... It was fun lah.. we met lots of our old friends.. Btw, height update, Warren Naising is Fucking TALL NOW!! He's even taller than cynthia! I remember when he used to be a little midget... I would laugh at his height.. haha.... good times.. There were many tears and hugs and pictures!!! :P WHY MUST THAT BITCH LEAVE??!! NOOOOO00ooooooo!!! :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( Stupid Yas...

B- Beautiful

I- Individual

T- That

C- Creates

H - Haters

Memang padan dgn si kawan aku nie... But we all love his crazy chick anyways... Babe, I wish you all the luck in Terengganu and hope you get straight A's in your PMR this year... We will be waiting for you to come back in December. Jangan Lupa, ya??

Me, Yas, Law and Cyn <3

My 15th Birthday.

On monday last week, it was my 15th Birthday... At 12 midnight Amalia texted me to wish me Happy Birthday... My brother got me a keychain with my name on it while my sister got me a black whale we named "CeDerp" Ce for Celine and Derp for Derpine, the internet meme.

I was very disappointed because Bibi forgot my birthday but according to him he just "didn't know the date" but doesnt it mean he didn't even think about it? Didn't check what day it was on? There definitely wasn't a gift this year... :( I was really sad...

At around 3 to 4, we were in the car driving to go shopping when my phone rang and my mum looked at me and said "Jun Zhi?". "MMhhmm". He told me he didnt forget he just didn't know the date.. that somehow dissapointed me even more. Not knowing the date proves that he didn't think about it... Didn't bother..

For the past few days I tried cheering myself up about it saying things like "Hey, he's too busy to remember something like that" "He gave me fireworks last year.. that can be counted as 2 presents" "He probably wanted to celebrate it with me properly some other time" but you know what? It didn't work.... "...to remember something like that" last yea he told me that my birthday comes once a year and that it was more important than ninisary... "...counts as 2 presents" It still isn't an excuse to not get me anything... "...celebrate some other time" He didnt... 

In the end i guess I guilt him into coming to my house and bringing me around the neighborhood.. That was pretty much it.. but i was happy with it.. for awhile.. because when he was trying to convince me to get on his bike he called me "baby". But the very next day he went back to his cold self.. he didn't even look at me.. 

:'(

Tomorrow I'm going to try to ask him to spend a little bit of time with me... I really hope we can be together on the 14th because its the day my mum left many years ago.. I don't think I can be alone on that day.. not in the state I'm in right now.. I'm crying every few minutes... and I have no idea why.. sad things keep appearing in my mind and I have no one to cheer me up cause the one that did it last year.. is ignoring me like I never existed... :'(

I Hope Tomorrow Will Be Better

Bibi, I miss u!!

FML

FMBirthday

FMBoyfriend

FMLoveForMyBoyfriend

FMFeelings

FMyselfForStillWantingHim

FTomorrow...

Chinese New Year's Eve

 

Waaahh.. last night was Chinese New Year's Eve.. we went to my grandma's house.. As usual I ended up playing card games with my cousins all night... Daniel brought out this new card game (again) and I kept on losing... damn it >_< Anyways when it struck 12 midnight.... There were so many explosions in the sky!!!

Boom!! Boom!! Boom!!

And at that moment, I remembered how Bibi lit fireworks in front of my house on my birthday...Then it made me sad because Bibi and I aren't really communicating anymore... I just wanted all the fireworks to stop and go away... but that's not possible, huh? They're gonna play more tonight since it is Chinese New Year... :'( Stupid boy.. why must give me such a nice big present...

Highlights of 2011

It's that time of the year again.. Yes, the end of the year.. It's time to talk about the highlights of the year 2011..
Time to list them all out.. One by one.. Let's start..

1. January - Celebrated Chinese New Year with Mum's side of the family and stayed over at Pei Chen's house. (Last time I saw my grandma)
2. February - My birth month. On the 6th, Bibi lighted fireworks in front of  our house to celebrate my birthday. ♥
3. March - I got fake 'married'. It was a BCCC demonstration and I was the bride. Glad that's over :)
4. April - Debated for the first time at Swinburne Sarawak's sixth debating championship. I was ranked 28 over 100+ speakers in the junior category.
5. July - Went to Betong for State Debate and Won XD
6. Was indirectly dumped by Bibi... via not replying texts and calls
7. Went to Terengganu for National Debate.. lost to Penang...
8. Officially got back together with Bibi during CH Annual Food Sale
9. Grandfather from my dad's side passed away at 92...
10. Was at the AIDS Campaign for the first half of the activities before I rushed off to the funeral..
11. Dropped to number 42 in class >.<" damn
12. Mummy completed the book she was writing
13. Popo (grandma from mum's side) passed away... :'(
14. Officially a 3B student :/

And if a miracle doesn't happen in 25 mins (New Year) I will officially be ending 2011 with a broken heart...

:') I'm still hoping..

What is Christmas about?

Click the picture above as you read this post :)

If you clicked the Christmas tree, you should have opened a youtube video of the song "It's About The Cross" by Go Fish ♥

Please don't close it right away.. Take sometime to listen to it and truly understand it..

Christmas isn't about all the presents we receive or about the Christmas meal..

Although, it's the way we celebrate it, people do tend to forget the true meaning of Christmas..

Why do we celebrate Christmas? 

For these?

This fancy food?

No! It;'s to celebrate the birth of Jesus, The Son Of God. The one who came to save our souls. Christmas was the beginning of his journey here on Earth. But we celebrate his Birthday because of what he did at the end of his journey on Earth...

He was up there for us. For our sins. He sacrificed himself for the people he met when he was on earth and for all the people that were born since then... He took our place up on that cross. And when he did, it doesn't look so beautiful as portrayed on so many pictures. It was horrible. It wasn't so clean or peaceful. Jesus went through so much pain. He had nails in the palms of his hands and the back of his foot to the cross. His weight on the cross was supported by the nails that were pierced in his hands... 

I cannot imagine how much pain he must have gone through. But you know what? He did go through it. He went through with it for us. So, that we would've have to be the ones up there bleeding to death and burning in hell. 

Many children love Santa. They love santa for giving them gifts every year. But Santa isn't even real. I don't get why parents lie to their children about santa. Why the fictional character? Why not tell them the story about Jesus? The one who gave us the most unimaginable gift. Children believe that Santa gives them toys and so, they love him.. believe in him. But what about Jesus? Why is Santa chosen over Jesus on his birthday? 

Drop Class T.T

Bloggiee... guess what?? I've dropped to 3B :'( Adduuhhh.... First time I drop class la... >.<" What am I gonna do.. Amalia and Bibi ask me to go apply to transfer back.. Hmmm.. to transfer or not to transfer.. Other people would think that I'm cheating, huh? But then again... I only really care what 2 people in that school thinks of me.. and those 2 exact people were the ones that told me to apply even before I said anything yet.. So, I guess I'm going to for it. Hopefully I can be with them again!! >.<" Please Please Please Please Please!!!

My GA & C Bloggiee!!

Hey bloggie..

I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot recently but its because I have made a new blog.. 

This blog was made for the GiveAways and Contests I wanna join..

You can check it out and hopefully follow it by clicking the picture above...

Umm... Yeah.. that's it.. I plan to start posting more soon..

No promises but i do plan to!!

hehe... 

PS: Recently I have received a few requests to give advice...

Um.. first of all, I would like to make it straight. 

I am not a professional..

I am just a 14 (turning 1) year old girl.

but if you would still like me advice,

please feel free to PM me at my Facebook account...

My Facebook badge can be found at the sidebar

and I will try my best to help you :)

Contest Blog Paling OHseemm!

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Only the most OHseemm-est blogs will win >.<

I hope I will get something :P

I nak tag.. Joel Leslie & Cynthia

Blood May Not Be Thicker Than Water After All, Teacher

Shit happens, you know? But all this while, I'd had people back me up the whole time.. Friends that would always be rooting for me.. No matter what. That's what true friends do, right? Season friends would've just be like "ahh... fuck it. This ain't worth it." Real friends go "aahh.. fuck it. You ARE worth it." How I wish I could meet up with my true friends again.. The whole gang... My brothers, My sisters... We're not related by blood... but I believe what we have was stronger than that.. Something much more important... We were there for each other.. We took care of each other.. We supported each other... We loved each other... What I'm talking about are true friends... The ones some people take a lifetime to find... The ones lucky people are blessed to have.. The ones stupid asses can't seem to appreciate...

"Blood is thicker than water"
If you were a sailor and for many years the blood had been breaking your boat? Had slowly chipped of bits of your boat by splashing from both sides of it? What if the water was the one that cleaned off your boat after sailing the bloody seas? Would you still sail in the sea of blood when you have the welcoming sea of water just around the corner? Would you just turn your back on the friends that were there for you during your hard times for family members (more towards grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, etc) that don't even know your birthday? What about the relatives that just like the bloody sea? The ones that actually hurt you? The ones that pulled you down? Would you really choose them over people who helped you up and supported you through the walk of your life.. The ones that walked alongside you the whole time.. Whispering little words of encouragement into your ears whenever you get even a glimpse of doubt.

In these scenarios... How can anyone expect us to choose? How can blood still be thicker than water?
A person who only shares the same blood will never be as important as a person who shares your memories....

11.11.11

hhey bloggie.. It is now 9.40 am.. It is dated 11.11.11, the last day of school and I'm at home. Haha.. This is cuz mum's going to see Po Po again so, she can't pick us from school. Im hungry, haven't eaten yet...
Anyways... since today is 11.11.11.. A lot of people say we should wish for things.. So, Here is my list of wishes  ☺ but before that, I would like to wish my BFF, Jia Ying.. A very happy 15th Birthday all the way in Perth!!!

I'll be posting my list later tonight.. :) at 11 pm (see what i did there?)
So anyways, bye!! Happy wishing!!

I (maybe) Hate Math

Hey bloggie.. I'm currently waiting for my previous post to load picciess so.. I'm bored... So, I guess I'm gonna blog about Math... Yes, Math.. Remember math?? If you don't.. here's a few things I said about Math in the past.... Check them out XDD

• "Ugh!! Math is so selfish! He already has numbers and yet he still wants alphabets." (Yes, i'm certain math is a dude)
• "Stupid math, I don't wanna solve your problems!! I've got my own!!" (Math is really problematic)
• "Math, Why do you have so many numbers?!!!!" (It really does... it not only has 1 to zilliions but also to -zillions)

Anyways.. those are only some of the things I've said about math.... but that was when I got... let me make this embarrassing mark invisible!!! ---------69%------------      Haha.. and yes that is over a 100%

I was so fcking bummed... but then the next exam I improved!!! Woohoo!!! and a lot too... :D

I got 92%... I was so overjoyed because the week before the test papers were given out, I kept having this dream about me failing my math... Scary...

The picture at the top of this post is one I drew and took personally.. Nice, huh? You better say it is >.<

It was when I was completing my math workbook and I had been looking at numbers for 2 hours straight.. 

So, you can't really blame a girl for....getting distracted and.... dissing Math!!

Mwhahahahhaha!!!!

Peace~!! <3

Jia Ying's Back, Babehh!!

Hey bloggiee.. I haven't posted anything here recently... It's just cuz I've been so busy lately.. and lazy :P
 So, I believe I've mentioned that I saw Jiay agn before my National Debate competition... I did tell you that, didn't I???
So anyways... we took some blurry pictures.. and here they are.. It took damn long for them to upload =.=

 Me and Jiay in my room!! (intruder) lolz

 This is kinda blurry... the clearer one is below.

 BAMM!!! See that?! I've gotten taller than her... WOOHOO!!!

 Sis, Jiay, Me... the girls of the neigborhood (plus Janelle, of course)

 Celine's got a long way to go... (my room is a mess)

 Asian Face -.-

 Even with only 3 quarters of our faces shown, we're still A.W.E.S.O.M.E

 Damn... my skills are getting worse...

 Bear SIDE Hug awww... <3

 Wat's up with these 2 and their Peace?

 Me and my bestie.....

1997-2011

(Hopefully be besties to our graves)

Crushes hurt that's why they're called a Crush

Hey bloggie.. I'm kind of pressured now... Like.. just this week alone.... meaning since monday to now(friday).. 3 guys have told me that they liked or loved me....the latest on just happened 10 mins ago.... and on top of that... Bibi says he wants to try again.... I don't know what to do...

You know Bibi already right? so, the first guy is this guy I met through a game.. I know right?? WRONG!!.. anyways you guys know how much i love playing "backyard monsters"?? im not particularly good at it but hey, i like it.. anyways he kept on attacking me but i didnt respond then a few days ago he was like " im sorry for attacking u, can we be friends?" I was like "umm.. sure" and that was that. he's 21 and in another country. he asked for my phone number =.=" He was shocked that I was 14.. then i was like... this guy doesnt seem right. So i ignored him.. but he kept spamming my fb with "i miss you"s.. so i decided to unfriend or block him.. but when i wanted to... it seems that we aren't friends... so cool :D the other guy claims to be a guy from 6E in st jo 2 years ago... He remembers me, but I dont know who he is.. probs because my class doesnt mix with his a lot.. seeing how mine's the best with many prefects who are after the people from his class most of the time... I thank god tho it's not that creepy Emmanuel guy... he suddenly grabbed my hand while I was walking back to class... ugh... creepy dude >.<.. and lastly the one that just happened 10 mins ago.. was the guy from tuition....

So, what should I do?? Stay with Bibi? Risk getting hurt again? I mean he can be sweet at times but sometimes... he hurts me and scares me and... :( if i go back with him... what would happen?

Maybe I should just ignore everything... just you know, let it go.. maybe and hopefully it will like clean up itself?? hopefully.... I really don't feel like getting into this again.. atleast not so soon...

I'm still a bit hurt after what happened... I don't think I should...

Looks like a beggining..

Bloggie!!! EEPP!!!!



We talked again today.. =) hehe.. just normal stuff.. getting know each other stuff.. He still doesn't know my full name though.. He asked my name the previous time I spoke to me and I didn't reply. so, today he asked again and I asked why and he said he wanted to add me on facebook... gosshhh... I can't help flirting with him.. He's just so nice... He talks politely and I don't know.. He's just overall.. like a really nice and sweet boy... and he talks to his friend behind me... he thinks I can't understand what he's saying cause he's speaking in chinese but I understand enough :) to know what they're saying about me... At first, he was like.. what's her name? How old is she? What race is she? Do you think she's a mix? I don't think so, but she spoke English.. Hard to tell and so forth.. and then when he first started talking to me, I only gave short answers and went back to doing my work and he kept saying to his friend "ugh.. I feel like talking to her la, What should I say? What should I ask? Do you have anything to ask her? His friend tried to change the subject a few times but he kept on talking about talking to me so his friend said "Why are you so interested in her? Like her ha?" He just "nolah, just erm.. you know.. make friends with her only" So, I thought cool, I can deal with that. =D and then he found out more about me from teacher who asked me a few questions.. and then ba da bing ba da boom... "ooo, so she's from Brunei, Waa, Brunei so cool, eh.. Brunei Brunei Brunei then he tapped my chair and asked me about Brunei and stuff.. and now he's like talking to me every few minutes.. constantly tapping my chair and asking me questions... We talked about school exams, he even asked me to transfer to St. Co and I told him how I was accepted but turned the offer down.. but he still asked me to transfer there (who knows why?) but I just told him that there was a guy there that I didn't want to see ( If you know who that is, bravo!!) and he sang =3 his school song.. He kept saying it was dumb but I thought it was kinda cute :)







Ermm... I'm not sure weather that's considered flirting or not.. but yeah... It's fun talking to him.... and who knows what the future holds right?

Selected... NOT

Bloggie.. There's something I've gotta get off my chest...

Umm.. Well, I found out a few days ago... My sister didn't get selected to be a school prefect..

She didn't make the cut and you know what's worse? There's a possibility that it's my fault..

You see, the one who suggests the names is actually the class and teacher and well, let's just say that celine's class teacher doesn't like me very much...

I will not mention her name but.. a few years back, I was bestfriends with her niece.. Her niece is an awesome person btw ;) anyways.. this friend of mine didn't really study much so her results dropped and I guess her aunt sort of, kinda blamed me for it.. It's like whenever she sees me playing she'd be line "Play Play Play la, UPSR no get 5A, then you know" but I didn't really care what she thought I mean, she never taught be before and never did.. She doesn't teach many good classes..I think during our last year there, she only was offered to teach one good class... So i thought.. ahh.. fuck it.. Why should I care what she thinks...

In the end I got Straight A's but my friend didn't.. She got a B. Anyways... she didn't know that I was my sister's sister.. erm.. In a simpler way, she didn't know me and my sis we related like.. AT ALL. So, when I found out that she became my sister's teacher.. I was like.. Omg... sis, watch out.. she's EVILL!!!

At the end of the day, she found out and then she started paying attention to my sis.. and when I say pay attention, it's not the good kind... She scolds my little sis like.. daily and she even pinched her.. u know for what? Because my sister wrote notes and drew a few things on the back of her own hand!! I mean WHAT THE F-?!!!! A few years ago and I quote our principle said "Don't draw on the walls of your class, if your hands very itchy to draw, draw on yourself. Draw on your face or hands.. up to you" See? Uhh.. anyways.. So, yea.. A lot of people were surprised that my sis didn't make the cut and she's sad about it.. and you know what? She actually ADMITTED it.. She actually told me that she was disappointed.. I mean WOW.. this is Celine we're talking about the cold badass chick that never seems to be sad or hurt... My dad doesn't know about it.

uhh... If my bro makes the cut next year... then my sis would be the only one that didn't... and frankly, I'm not looking forward to that...

That's it for now.. Ughh.. teacher issues... pilih kasih

What to do? It's life

Peace out!

Subconsciously answering

Ughh.. Bloggiee.. I have like a MAJOR prob.. Today when I took the exam.. I didn't actually feel like i was taking the exam. Half of me was like.. who knows where... probs on cloud 9 or something.. It's like when I took my geo test just now, it was like.. I saw myself circling and and darkening the answers out but then I sort of lost myself and drifted off into a day dream.. The weird thing is that when you day dream, u stop whatever you're doing but.. I didn't but I finally like woke up from my day dream, I checked my paper.. I had finished the entire paper.. WHILE DAYDREAMING!! Oh goshh... this is worse than daydreaming.. and when i took my BM exam, I actually finished it without panicking at all which is totally wrong!! I ALWAYS panick on atleast 8 questions.. WHY didn't I.. Oh dear, what if my subconscious mind answered the questions wrongly??!!! AAHH!!! Panicking.. and damn phone keeps ringing.. I mean like normally I'm okay with it but I'm actually waiting for someone to contact me and when it rings, it's like oh.. false alarm =.=" Annoying, right?? Anyways it's english tomorrow which is just.. like.. there's nothing to study even if i wanted to study for it.. There's really nothing to study for it. My only concern is Sejarah for tmr.. I got a B or C (i'm not sure) on the previous exam.. So, gotta try to improve :P

That's it for now.. Hope I don't answer my questions subconsciously again.. That'd be just crap ..

Ohya!! Before I forget ... Yesterday was Jeff's bday.. Why did I want to state it out? I don't know.. Just that when I saw the notification on FB.. I kinda remembered him.. How funny he was, how shy he was, how he blushed whenever his friends teased him about me, how me and my friends hung out with his gang and just chilled, the jokes, the first time i actually contacted him (YM) he wouldn't stop playing with the audibles.. I actually got irritated :> how we kept out communication secret from the public eye. The nickname me and my friends use to talk about him. (it was a code, lol)
And let's not forget the time me and mia snuck up to the Pri 6 floor (forbidden floor for non-pri 6 students) and actually got to see the gang's pics while they were kids.. They were.. one word..
A.D.O.R.A.B.L.E.. Good times... good times.. I would like to remember more things that happened.. but I have a sejarah book getting lonely..

So, allow me to go warm him up.. haha

Buh-bye!!

Exam TIme Again

Cheating on examss.. Looks like a good idea ;D

Hi semua... Minggu Ujian sekarang nie.. stress gilerr la...

Ughh.... exams examss... I'm already sick.. For some reason, I always get sick around exam times.. why?? Cuz Im FREAKIN Allergic to exams.. and stress.. haha.. wonder if its really possible.. anyways.. Im just gonna say this.. I'm totally like.. no ready for the exam.. I have My geo book on my lap on chap..... 24 Perubahan Penduduk.. It's not interesting if any of you are wondering.. But I guess today was quite productive.. I actually managed to cover 3 chaps.. so.. yay?? For once I actually DID TRY to do some preparation for exams.. Goodness the exam week hasnt even started and I'm already wishing it was over.. BM tomorrow and we don't even know what's coming up.. NOOO!!!!! I'm scoring horribly on BM as it already is and now there's no tips? no nothing??!!! NOOOOOO!!!! Oh God, please help me not fail my exam.... please give me concentration (which I obviously DONT have) please help me actually stay awake during the exam... and not fall asleep halfway again..

That experience was so scary.. I actually fell asleep 10 minutes into the Geo exam last year and when I woke up.. I realised I had actually slept for like 15 mins.. So I quickly answered the remaining questions just on time.. Goshh.. so scary.. Hope that NEVER happens again..

and for this exam.. I promise myself that I will not CHEAT.. Not even one question.. No matter how bad I want to.. No matter how easy it is.. I will NOT!! Hear me, my brain? Hear me, conscious? I WILL NOT FREAKIN' CHEAT! I did it for the past few exams.. and I will succeed again this time.. I will not give into the temptation.. I just wished it wasn't so easy to cheat =.=" People should really learn how to take care of their paper carefully and I need to learn not to keep peering through the sides of my eyes... cause even thought it's only through sides which doesn't give much of a range of things to see... It's still enough to cheat and it's also clear enough for me...

Ugh.. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat.I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not!!!

I feel better now.. Oh well.. Off to study more geo.. Gotta get the form 1 chapters in my head to.. Cause I didnt read them last year.. Regretting~~

anyways.. that's it for now..

Wish me luck!!

Ciao~ ♀