♥ Through the brown eyes of mine ♥

My 15th Birthday.

2012-02-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

On monday last week, it was my 15th Birthday... At 12 midnight Amalia texted me to wish me Happy Birthday... My brother got me a keychain with my name on it while my sister got me a black whale we named "CeDerp" Ce for Celine and Derp for Derpine, the internet meme.

I was very disappointed because Bibi forgot my birthday but according to him he just "didn't know the date" but doesnt it mean he didn't even think about it? Didn't check what day it was on? There definitely wasn't a gift this year... :( I was really sad...

At around 3 to 4, we were in the car driving to go shopping when my phone rang and my mum looked at me and said "Jun Zhi?". "MMhhmm". He told me he didnt forget he just didn't know the date.. that somehow dissapointed me even more. Not knowing the date proves that he didn't think about it... Didn't bother..

For the past few days I tried cheering myself up about it saying things like "Hey, he's too busy to remember something like that" "He gave me fireworks last year.. that can be counted as 2 presents" "He probably wanted to celebrate it with me properly some other time" but you know what? It didn't work.... "...to remember something like that" last yea he told me that my birthday comes once a year and that it was more important than ninisary... "...counts as 2 presents" It still isn't an excuse to not get me anything... "...celebrate some other time" He didnt...

In the end i guess I guilt him into coming to my house and bringing me around the neighborhood.. That was pretty much it.. but i was happy with it.. for awhile.. because when he was trying to convince me to get on his bike he called me "baby". But the very next day he went back to his cold self.. he didn't even look at me..

:'(

Tomorrow I'm going to try to ask him to spend a little bit of time with me... I really hope we can be together on the 14th because its the day my mum left many years ago.. I don't think I can be alone on that day.. not in the state I'm in right now.. I'm crying every few minutes... and I have no idea why.. sad things keep appearing in my mind and I have no one to cheer me up cause the one that did it last year.. is ignoring me like I never existed... :'(

I Hope Tomorrow Will Be Better

Bibi, I miss u!!

FML

FMBirthday

FMBoyfriend

FMLoveForMyBoyfriend

FMFeelings

FMyselfForStillWantingHim

FTomorrow...

Chinese New Year's Eve

2012-01-23T10:06:00.001+08:00

Waaahh.. last night was Chinese New Year's Eve.. we went to my grandma's house.. As usual I ended up playing card games with my cousins all night... Daniel brought out this new card game (again) and I kept on losing... damn it >_< Anyways when it struck 12 midnight.... There were so many explosions in the sky!!!

Boom!! Boom!! Boom!!

And at that moment, I remembered how Bibi lit fireworks in front of my house on my birthday...Then it made me sad because Bibi and I aren't really communicating anymore... I just wanted all the fireworks to stop and go away... but that's not possible, huh? They're gonna play more tonight since it is Chinese New Year... :'( Stupid boy.. why must give me such a nice big present...

Highlights of 2011

2011-12-31T00:32:00.000+08:00

It's that time of the year again.. Yes, the end of the year.. It's time to talk about the highlights of the year 2011..
Time to list them all out.. One by one.. Let's start..

January - Celebrated Chinese New Year with Mum's side of the family and stayed over at Pei Chen's house. (Last time I saw my grandma)
February - My birth month. On the 6th, Bibi lighted fireworks in front of our house to celebrate my birthday. ♥
March - I got fake 'married'. It was a BCCC demonstration and I was the bride. Glad that's over :)
April - Debated for the first time at Swinburne Sarawak's sixth debating championship. I was ranked 28 over 100+ speakers in the junior category.
July - Went to Betong for State Debate and Won XD
Was indirectly dumped by Bibi... via not replying texts and calls
Went to Terengganu for National Debate.. lost to Penang...
Officially got back together with Bibi during CH Annual Food Sale
Grandfather from my dad's side passed away at 92...
Was at the AIDS Campaign for the first half of the activities before I rushed off to the funeral..
Dropped to number 42 in class >.<" damn
Mummy completed the book she was writing
Popo (grandma from mum's side) passed away... :'(
Officially a 3B student :/

And if a miracle doesn't happen in 25 mins (New Year) I will officially be ending 2011 with a broken heart...

:') I'm still hoping..

What is Christmas about?

2011-12-26T01:43:00.001+08:00

Click the picture above as you read this post :)

If you clicked the Christmas tree, you should have opened a youtube video of the song "It's About The Cross" by Go Fish ♥

Please don't close it right away.. Take sometime to listen to it and truly understand it..

Christmas isn't about all the presents we receive or about the Christmas meal..

Although, it's the way we celebrate it, people do tend to forget the true meaning of Christmas..

Why do we celebrate Christmas?

For these?

This fancy food?

No! It;'s to celebrate the birth of Jesus, The Son Of God. The one who came to save our souls. Christmas was the beginning of his journey here on Earth. But we celebrate his Birthday because of what he did at the end of his journey on Earth...

He was up there for us. For our sins. He sacrificed himself for the people he met when he was on earth and for all the people that were born since then... He took our place up on that cross. And when he did, it doesn't look so beautiful as portrayed on so many pictures. It was horrible. It wasn't so clean or peaceful. Jesus went through so much pain. He had nails in the palms of his hands and the back of his foot to the cross. His weight on the cross was supported by the nails that were pierced in his hands...

I cannot imagine how much pain he must have gone through. But you know what? He did go through it. He went through with it for us. So, that we would've have to be the ones up there bleeding to death and burning in hell.

Many children love Santa. They love santa for giving them gifts every year. But Santa isn't even real. I don't get why parents lie to their children about santa. Why the fictional character? Why not tell them the story about Jesus? The one who gave us the most unimaginable gift. Children believe that Santa gives them toys and so, they love him.. believe in him. But what about Jesus? Why is Santa chosen over Jesus on his birthday?

Drop Class T.T

2011-12-23T23:22:00.001+08:00

Bloggiee... guess what?? I've dropped to 3B :'( Adduuhhh.... First time I drop class la... >.<" What am I gonna do.. Amalia and Bibi ask me to go apply to transfer back.. Hmmm.. to transfer or not to transfer.. Other people would think that I'm cheating, huh? But then again... I only really care what 2 people in that school thinks of me.. and those 2 exact people were the ones that told me to apply even before I said anything yet.. So, I guess I'm going to for it. Hopefully I can be with them again!! >.<" Please Please Please Please Please!!!

My GA & C Bloggiee!!

2011-12-12T20:53:00.001+08:00

Hey bloggie..

I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot recently but its because I have made a new blog..

This blog was made for the GiveAways and Contests I wanna join..

You can check it out and hopefully follow it by clicking the picture above...

Umm... Yeah.. that's it.. I plan to start posting more soon..

No promises but i do plan to!!

hehe...

PS: Recently I have received a few requests to give advice...

Um.. first of all, I would like to make it straight.

I am not a professional..

I am just a 14 (turning 1) year old girl.

but if you would still like me advice,

please feel free to PM me at my Facebook account...

My Facebook badge can be found at the sidebar

and I will try my best to help you :)

Contest Blog Paling OHseemm!

2011-12-06T14:44:00.001+08:00

Click the above to join :D

Only the most OHseemm-est blogs will win >.<

I hope I will get something :P

I nak tag.. Joel Leslie & Cynthia

Blood May Not Be Thicker Than Water After All, Teacher

2011-11-14T00:06:00.001+08:00

Shit happens, you know? But all this while, I'd had people back me up the whole time.. Friends that would always be rooting for me.. No matter what. That's what true friends do, right? Season friends would've just be like "ahh... fuck it. This ain't worth it." Real friends go "aahh.. fuck it. You ARE worth it." How I wish I could meet up with my true friends again.. The whole gang... My brothers, My sisters... We're not related by blood... but I believe what we have was stronger than that.. Something much more important... We were there for each other.. We took care of each other.. We supported each other... We loved each other... What I'm talking about are true friends... The ones some people take a lifetime to find... The ones lucky people are blessed to have.. The ones stupid asses can't seem to appreciate...

"Blood is thicker than water"
If you were a sailor and for many years the blood had been breaking your boat? Had slowly chipped of bits of your boat by splashing from both sides of it? What if the water was the one that cleaned off your boat after sailing the bloody seas? Would you still sail in the sea of blood when you have the welcoming sea of water just around the corner? Would you just turn your back on the friends that were there for you during your hard times for family members (more towards grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, etc) that don't even know your birthday? What about the relatives that just like the bloody sea? The ones that actually hurt you? The ones that pulled you down? Would you really choose them over people who helped you up and supported you through the walk of your life.. The ones that walked alongside you the whole time.. Whispering little words of encouragement into your ears whenever you get even a glimpse of doubt.

In these scenarios... How can anyone expect us to choose? How can blood still be thicker than water?
A person who only shares the same blood will never be as important as a person who shares your memories....

11.11.11

2011-11-11T09:40:00.001+08:00

hhey bloggie.. It is now 9.40 am.. It is dated 11.11.11, the last day of school and I'm at home. Haha.. This is cuz mum's going to see Po Po again so, she can't pick us from school. Im hungry, haven't eaten yet...
Anyways... since today is 11.11.11.. A lot of people say we should wish for things.. So, Here is my list of wishes ☺ but before that, I would like to wish my BFF, Jia Ying.. A very happy 15th Birthday all the way in Perth!!!

I'll be posting my list later tonight.. :) at 11 pm (see what i did there?)
So anyways, bye!! Happy wishing!!

I (maybe) Hate Math

2011-10-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hey bloggie.. I'm currently waiting for my previous post to load picciess so.. I'm bored... So, I guess I'm gonna blog about Math... Yes, Math.. Remember math?? If you don't.. here's a few things I said about Math in the past.... Check them out XDD

"Ugh!! Math is so selfish! He already has numbers and yet he still wants alphabets." (Yes, i'm certain math is a dude)
"Stupid math, I don't wanna solve your problems!! I've got my own!!" (Math is really problematic)
"Math, Why do you have so many numbers?!!!!" (It really does... it not only has 1 to zilliions but also to -zillions)

Anyways.. those are only some of the things I've said about math.... but that was when I got... let me make this embarrassing mark invisible!!! ---------69%------------ Haha.. and yes that is over a 100%

I was so fcking bummed... but then the next exam I improved!!! Woohoo!!! and a lot too... :D

I got 92%... I was so overjoyed because the week before the test papers were given out, I kept having this dream about me failing my math... Scary...

The picture at the top of this post is one I drew and took personally.. Nice, huh? You better say it is >.<

It was when I was completing my math workbook and I had been looking at numbers for 2 hours straight..

So, you can't really blame a girl for....getting distracted and.... dissing Math!!

Mwhahahahhaha!!!!

Peace~!! <3

Jia Ying's Back, Babehh!!

2011-10-11T23:36:00.001+08:00

Hey bloggiee.. I haven't posted anything here recently... It's just cuz I've been so busy lately.. and lazy :P
So, I believe I've mentioned that I saw Jiay agn before my National Debate competition... I did tell you that, didn't I???
So anyways... we took some blurry pictures.. and here they are.. It took damn long for them to upload =.=

Me and Jiay in my room!! (intruder) lolz

This is kinda blurry... the clearer one is below.

BAMM!!! See that?! I've gotten taller than her... WOOHOO!!!

Sis, Jiay, Me... the girls of the neigborhood (plus Janelle, of course)

Celine's got a long way to go... (my room is a mess)

Asian Face -.-

Even with only 3 quarters of our faces shown, we're still A.W.E.S.O.M.E

Damn... my skills are getting worse...

Bear SIDE Hug awww... <3

Wat's up with these 2 and their Peace?

Me and my bestie.....

1997-2011

(Hopefully be besties to our graves)

Crushes hurt that's why they're called a Crush

2011-09-02T21:31:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie.. I'm kind of pressured now... Like.. just this week alone.... meaning since monday to now(friday).. 3 guys have told me that they liked or loved me....the latest on just happened 10 mins ago.... and on top of that... Bibi says he wants to try again.... I don't know what to do...

You know Bibi already right? so, the first guy is this guy I met through a game.. I know right?? WRONG!!.. anyways you guys know how much i love playing "backyard monsters"?? im not particularly good at it but hey, i like it.. anyways he kept on attacking me but i didnt respond then a few days ago he was like " im sorry for attacking u, can we be friends?" I was like "umm.. sure" and that was that. he's 21 and in another country. he asked for my phone number =.=" He was shocked that I was 14.. then i was like... this guy doesnt seem right. So i ignored him.. but he kept spamming my fb with "i miss you"s.. so i decided to unfriend or block him.. but when i wanted to... it seems that we aren't friends... so cool :D the other guy claims to be a guy from 6E in st jo 2 years ago... He remembers me, but I dont know who he is.. probs because my class doesnt mix with his a lot.. seeing how mine's the best with many prefects who are after the people from his class most of the time... I thank god tho it's not that creepy Emmanuel guy... he suddenly grabbed my hand while I was walking back to class... ugh... creepy dude >.<.. and lastly the one that just happened 10 mins ago.. was the guy from tuition....

So, what should I do?? Stay with Bibi? Risk getting hurt again? I mean he can be sweet at times but sometimes... he hurts me and scares me and... :( if i go back with him... what would happen?

Maybe I should just ignore everything... just you know, let it go.. maybe and hopefully it will like clean up itself?? hopefully.... I really don't feel like getting into this again.. atleast not so soon...

I'm still a bit hurt after what happened... I don't think I should...

Looks like a beggining..

2011-08-25T22:23:00.005+08:00

Bloggie!!! EEPP!!!!

We talked again today.. =) hehe.. just normal stuff.. getting know each other stuff.. He still doesn't know my full name though.. He asked my name the previous time I spoke to me and I didn't reply. so, today he asked again and I asked why and he said he wanted to add me on facebook... gosshhh... I can't help flirting with him.. He's just so nice... He talks politely and I don't know.. He's just overall.. like a really nice and sweet boy... and he talks to his friend behind me... he thinks I can't understand what he's saying cause he's speaking in chinese but I understand enough :) to know what they're saying about me... At first, he was like.. what's her name? How old is she? What race is she? Do you think she's a mix? I don't think so, but she spoke English.. Hard to tell and so forth.. and then when he first started talking to me, I only gave short answers and went back to doing my work and he kept saying to his friend "ugh.. I feel like talking to her la, What should I say? What should I ask? Do you have anything to ask her? His friend tried to change the subject a few times but he kept on talking about talking to me so his friend said "Why are you so interested in her? Like her ha?" He just "nolah, just erm.. you know.. make friends with her only" So, I thought cool, I can deal with that. =D and then he found out more about me from teacher who asked me a few questions.. and then ba da bing ba da boom... "ooo, so she's from Brunei, Waa, Brunei so cool, eh.. Brunei Brunei Brunei then he tapped my chair and asked me about Brunei and stuff.. and now he's like talking to me every few minutes.. constantly tapping my chair and asking me questions... We talked about school exams, he even asked me to transfer to St. Co and I told him how I was accepted but turned the offer down.. but he still asked me to transfer there (who knows why?) but I just told him that there was a guy there that I didn't want to see ( If you know who that is, bravo!!) and he sang =3 his school song.. He kept saying it was dumb but I thought it was kinda cute :)

Ermm... I'm not sure weather that's considered flirting or not.. but yeah... It's fun talking to him.... and who knows what the future holds right?

Selected... NOT

2011-08-25T12:57:00.004+08:00

Bloggie.. There's something I've gotta get off my chest...

Umm.. Well, I found out a few days ago... My sister didn't get selected to be a school prefect..

She didn't make the cut and you know what's worse? There's a possibility that it's my fault..

You see, the one who suggests the names is actually the class and teacher and well, let's just say that celine's class teacher doesn't like me very much...

I will not mention her name but.. a few years back, I was bestfriends with her niece.. Her niece is an awesome person btw ;) anyways.. this friend of mine didn't really study much so her results dropped and I guess her aunt sort of, kinda blamed me for it.. It's like whenever she sees me playing she'd be line "Play Play Play la, UPSR no get 5A, then you know" but I didn't really care what she thought I mean, she never taught be before and never did.. She doesn't teach many good classes..I think during our last year there, she only was offered to teach one good class... So i thought.. ahh.. fuck it.. Why should I care what she thinks...

In the end I got Straight A's but my friend didn't.. She got a B. Anyways... she didn't know that I was my sister's sister.. erm.. In a simpler way, she didn't know me and my sis we related like.. AT ALL. So, when I found out that she became my sister's teacher.. I was like.. Omg... sis, watch out.. she's EVILL!!!

At the end of the day, she found out and then she started paying attention to my sis.. and when I say pay attention, it's not the good kind... She scolds my little sis like.. daily and she even pinched her.. u know for what? Because my sister wrote notes and drew a few things on the back of her own hand!! I mean WHAT THE F-?!!!! A few years ago and I quote our principle said "Don't draw on the walls of your class, if your hands very itchy to draw, draw on yourself. Draw on your face or hands.. up to you" See? Uhh.. anyways.. So, yea.. A lot of people were surprised that my sis didn't make the cut and she's sad about it.. and you know what? She actually ADMITTED it.. She actually told me that she was disappointed.. I mean WOW.. this is Celine we're talking about the cold badass chick that never seems to be sad or hurt... My dad doesn't know about it.

uhh... If my bro makes the cut next year... then my sis would be the only one that didn't... and frankly, I'm not looking forward to that...

That's it for now.. Ughh.. teacher issues... pilih kasih

What to do? It's life

Peace out!

Subconsciously answering

2011-08-22T19:24:00.005+08:00

Ughh.. Bloggiee.. I have like a MAJOR prob.. Today when I took the exam.. I didn't actually feel like i was taking the exam. Half of me was like.. who knows where... probs on cloud 9 or something.. It's like when I took my geo test just now, it was like.. I saw myself circling and and darkening the answers out but then I sort of lost myself and drifted off into a day dream.. The weird thing is that when you day dream, u stop whatever you're doing but.. I didn't but I finally like woke up from my day dream, I checked my paper.. I had finished the entire paper.. WHILE DAYDREAMING!! Oh goshh... this is worse than daydreaming.. and when i took my BM exam, I actually finished it without panicking at all which is totally wrong!! I ALWAYS panick on atleast 8 questions.. WHY didn't I.. Oh dear, what if my subconscious mind answered the questions wrongly??!!! AAHH!!! Panicking.. and damn phone keeps ringing.. I mean like normally I'm okay with it but I'm actually waiting for someone to contact me and when it rings, it's like oh.. false alarm =.=" Annoying, right?? Anyways it's english tomorrow which is just.. like.. there's nothing to study even if i wanted to study for it.. There's really nothing to study for it. My only concern is Sejarah for tmr.. I got a B or C (i'm not sure) on the previous exam.. So, gotta try to improve :P

That's it for now.. Hope I don't answer my questions subconsciously again.. That'd be just crap ..

Ohya!! Before I forget ... Yesterday was Jeff's bday.. Why did I want to state it out? I don't know.. Just that when I saw the notification on FB.. I kinda remembered him.. How funny he was, how shy he was, how he blushed whenever his friends teased him about me, how me and my friends hung out with his gang and just chilled, the jokes, the first time i actually contacted him (YM) he wouldn't stop playing with the audibles.. I actually got irritated :> how we kept out communication secret from the public eye. The nickname me and my friends use to talk about him. (it was a code, lol)
And let's not forget the time me and mia snuck up to the Pri 6 floor (forbidden floor for non-pri 6 students) and actually got to see the gang's pics while they were kids.. They were.. one word..
A.D.O.R.A.B.L.E.. Good times... good times.. I would like to remember more things that happened.. but I have a sejarah book getting lonely..

So, allow me to go warm him up.. haha

Buh-bye!!

Exam TIme Again

2011-08-21T21:36:00.003+08:00

Cheating on examss.. Looks like a good idea ;D

Hi semua... Minggu Ujian sekarang nie.. stress gilerr la...

Ughh.... exams examss... I'm already sick.. For some reason, I always get sick around exam times.. why?? Cuz Im FREAKIN Allergic to exams.. and stress.. haha.. wonder if its really possible.. anyways.. Im just gonna say this.. I'm totally like.. no ready for the exam.. I have My geo book on my lap on chap..... 24 Perubahan Penduduk.. It's not interesting if any of you are wondering.. But I guess today was quite productive.. I actually managed to cover 3 chaps.. so.. yay?? For once I actually DID TRY to do some preparation for exams.. Goodness the exam week hasnt even started and I'm already wishing it was over.. BM tomorrow and we don't even know what's coming up.. NOOO!!!!! I'm scoring horribly on BM as it already is and now there's no tips? no nothing??!!! NOOOOOO!!!! Oh God, please help me not fail my exam.... please give me concentration (which I obviously DONT have) please help me actually stay awake during the exam... and not fall asleep halfway again..

That experience was so scary.. I actually fell asleep 10 minutes into the Geo exam last year and when I woke up.. I realised I had actually slept for like 15 mins.. So I quickly answered the remaining questions just on time.. Goshh.. so scary.. Hope that NEVER happens again..

and for this exam.. I promise myself that I will not CHEAT.. Not even one question.. No matter how bad I want to.. No matter how easy it is.. I will NOT!! Hear me, my brain? Hear me, conscious? I WILL NOT FREAKIN' CHEAT! I did it for the past few exams.. and I will succeed again this time.. I will not give into the temptation.. I just wished it wasn't so easy to cheat =.=" People should really learn how to take care of their paper carefully and I need to learn not to keep peering through the sides of my eyes... cause even thought it's only through sides which doesn't give much of a range of things to see... It's still enough to cheat and it's also clear enough for me...

Ugh.. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat.I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not cheat. I will not!!!

I feel better now.. Oh well.. Off to study more geo.. Gotta get the form 1 chapters in my head to.. Cause I didnt read them last year.. Regretting~~

anyways.. that's it for now..

Wish me luck!!

Ciao~ ♀

H.U.N.G.R.Y ○○○

2011-08-10T23:29:00.003+08:00

Hye bloggie.. Long time no see.. heh heh.. :P

Hmm.. It's 11.30 pm at the moment.. I just finished my English homework (partially to be completely honest).. and I'm so hungry!!!

Wanna know why???

I only drank a bowl of soup and ate 2 satay sticks (not the stick, but the meat on the stick, okay?) and now I'm absolutely starving..

I can feel myself getting weaker and weaker.. Uhh.. Feeling tired...

Yawns yawns yawns..

Hungry Hungry Hungry..

Anyways Imma sleep now, because when we sleep we don't feel hungry.. heh heh heh ;D

That is.. if I can sleep.. cause I'm SOOOO hungry.. needing food..

I'll most probably dream of hamburgers and fries and mash potatoes and other unhealthy stuff... but the fact is that at this moment, I'd even eat carrot sticks.. THATS how hungry I am =.="

Okay bye now.. I simply love "onion heads" but they still dont look like onion heads to me.. The first time I saw them, I thought they were "nose-less kitties".. haha.. Okay, bye bye now ♥

Untold Secret

2011-07-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie.. I just have one word for today... "disaster"

The night before I had set everything up. I had planned everything. What I would do, what I would get done. But YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT?!!! Things didnt go as planned.. I didn't manage to fotostat Eunice's KH K.K, The SJ presentation was nto finished by 12.. HELL, they didn't even start doing it!!! I didn't get the chance to talk to the two teachers I had planned to see this morning.. I didn't tell him what I wanted to... cuz he kept ignoring me. and, I didn't get to make my blazer T.T

I will have to borrow Ci Min's elder sis's blazer again.. and the skirt.. I HAVE NO IDEA!!! Oh goodness, it was enough that it took so much difficulty to find the tailor since it was raining and wall but when we got there, they said they could'nt accept anymroe orders and that they most definitely would not be able to get the blazer done by th 25th.... It's cause it's almost Raya and they're having many orders from people to make custom made baju kurungs... So, I'm not getting my blazer... I'm sad... I really wanted my own.. I'm the only one in my team that still doesn't have one. So, yea... Things definitely didn't go as planned...

There's another thing I wanna get off my chest...

Um.. you see last year Bibi went for this bball competition.. If i'm not wrong, it was a 7 on 7 match.

I rmb the day that he lost, he was really sad and I was really worried for him because I knew it meant a lot to him because you see, at that time, the only time I wasn't on his mind (he claims) was when he was playing bball. The adrenaline was so overwhelming he'd forget the world... So, anyways I remember that night, i tried very hard not to hit any sensitive stuff about the match. I tried to pull his attention away to other things but he kept on thinking about it.. So, I told him "Don't worry babe.. there's always next year... You can try again in form 2.." He then told me that he would join again next year no matter what and weather or not we were together, I'd be there to watch him.. Yes, i agreed to it. How could I not?? Anyways, he hurt his hand? wrist? I'm not sure.. He promised to tell me but didn't.. Hmp.. liar.. anyways since I sit behind him in class, I can hear his convo with his friends every single day... Not that I do it on purpose but you know, it's quite hard to ignore loud blabbering going on directly infront of your face.. so, anyways i heard that he might not be able to join and I was like... I don't know.. I don't understand this feeling. Part of me is overjoyed that he can't play = he won't be able to get hurt.. but another part is like.. "aww, u must go.. you promised you would. You wanted to win, remember? You said you would. No matter what... Don't give it up already. You were the one who told me to never give up without a fight. where is the boy that said that? where has his optimistic spirit gone?" I don't want to tell him what to do... I don't know what my reaction would be to both of them. I might be dissapointed or happy.. all I know is this.. If he does play, I WANT to be there... I hope it isn't held during the time i'm in terengganu.. but if it does happen... I hope he brings his phone.. Please please please.. give me a way to contact you.. Give me a way to calm you down, a way to motivate you, a way to yell at you for all the reckless things you do...
Don't hurt yourself, you big lump.. otherwise i'd make u into a bigger piece of lumpiness... D:<

Poetry-Writing Notes and Tips!!

2011-07-13T21:09:00.004+08:00

a Well, with the english month coming up, which means more English competitions will be held, there are 2 competitions that is compulsary to the whole school. They are the Essay Writing and Poetry Writing contest.

I won both of them last year (Form 1 catergory, of course)

So, anyways here are the elements of poetry that were given by my English teacher last year which i just recently recovered and decided to share them, with some of my opinions on it myself and later on I will TRY to give some tips on the topic myself ☺

Elements of Poetry

Poetry is a type of writing that expresses the thought, feelings and experiences of poets. (Basically, It's there to express what you feel you want to let out)

Poems are arranged in lines which may or may not rhyme (Got that? It don't gotta rhyme. So, don't force yourself, babes)

Simile

a direct comparison between two things (A stick and another stick, lol)

It uses words such as 'as' and 'like' (You are AS sweet AS honey, corny)

In a poem "A red red rose", Robert Burns compares the girl he loves to a fresh, vibrant, red rose and then to a sweet well-played melody (To read it, click here)

Metaphor

is also a comparison. It is an indirect comparison.

It can be found in Shakespeare's most celebrated play, Hamlet. (Click here to read)

Personification

we give human characteristics and qualities to non-human objects (chairs, phones, pencils, etc)

examples :-
"The stars stared silently down on my sorrow" or "The tree whispered"

Rhyme

(In my opinion, this is the place where people have the most trouble with, so read up!)

Words that end with the same sound

Some poems rhyme and some do not rhyme

To see an example, click here

So, that was it, those were the notes me and my classmates got last year before the contest...

Now, for my notes.. umm... what do I say..

Well, I guess if you wanna take up poem writing but are not really good at rhyming things, you could do it in a group.. Like have a poetry writing group where you guys can help each other think of words that rhyme and create a fantastic poem.

If you have problems thinking of what to write about, don't worry, just get your favourite drink, mine is juice, get something to nibble on and just chill.. You can't force art...(yes, I know how cheesy it sounds.. but it is the truth) It will come to you eventually.. Remember poetry-writing is suppose to be a way of releasing what's inside that was not able to be released though verbal words. :)

The poem can be anything you want, weather humorous, romantic, sweet, dirty (lol), anger and practically anything in the world. There are no limitations. But if the poem you want to write needs to be handed in to teacher, I suggest something simple and not to much emotions put in because if you do that, the teacher would be able to figure out what's in your heart or head and nobody wants that, right??

So, those are the tips and notes I have on poetry writing, Remember, to just FEEL it and it will just come to you..

That's all I have for now ♫

Have fun writing!

PEACE OUT!!

Woot!! woot!! Ω

2011-07-13T16:38:00.003+08:00

Bloggie!!

Last night we received the motions for the upcoming debate competitions!! yay!! We're going to nationals!! Woo!!!

Anyways.. I've got lots of things to do.. Ahhh!!

Sj project, Art project, Sj presentation, debate preperation, get the release form signed, BCCC, studies, tuition enrolment and something strange happened the other day and I'm not quite sure what it was about and what to do about it.. Should I just let it be?

Ugh!! stuff to do.. stuff to do.. currently writing a list of things to do for my maid because she has not cleaned my room in like what 2-3 days?? so, yea.. writing a list of things for her to get done while I'm at school tmr :D... I didn't scold her tho... I'm patient.. lol...

Hey, you wanna know what I do for fun and release?? I just find a song with an awesome beat, turn the speakers up and just move my bodehh!!! The least I would do is do the 'dougie'... sometimes I just move the upper part of my body while sitting on the chair.. It's just when u hear a rockin' beat, you just have that feeling to move to it.. ;) currently listening to TOUCHIN ON MY by 3 oh 3!! The beat is pretty SICK!! Altho, not recommended for kids, if u knw what I mean *wink* *wink*.. no you don't know what I mean.. Most people don't 90% of the time.. so, it's alright... ♪~You are not alone~♫

anyways, thats all I have time for now... ☻

Circling My Head

2011-07-08T13:41:00.006+08:00

Hey bloggie... Waddup???
Check out my hair... the front hair i mean..
Ta-da, it;s grown longer!! almost back to the way it was b4 i so cruelly snipped it off.. :D
My boyfriend or shall i say ex-boyfriend didn't like it short so at that time i was like...
"Grow hair Grow!!!" But then we broke up and I didn't think about it but just now in the car, when i tried to fall asleep, my front hair started poking my eyes.. thats when i realised "GOSH!! It's getting long!!!" hahax :D

As you can see, I'm still in my sexy-ass PJ clothes.. Yes, I have no bathe yet.. But I do plan to, soon!! So don't go around thinking I'm some weird hobo person that doesn't shower... Hehe..
I like this pic eh... I look so innocent.. How come I didn't realise that before? And I like my hair in it too.. You know, usually after taking off the hairband tying up my hair, There would be this huge bump on my hair? well, for some reason, there isn't today.. hmmm... maybe it's cause my hairband was so loose.. that my hair kept drooping low :P anyways..

Bad news time...

Bad-stuff-happened face...
oky, so well my grandmother is still in the emergency ward at the hospital, grandpa still has cancer,.... I love my grandmother :( I don't want her to.....go :'( and my grandad is Awesome.. he's always so friendly, there was once when my mother scolded me and i cried.. I kept on crying even after everyone went to sleep.. Everyone except my grandpa, he saw me crying and turned on the TV and switched it to some chinese cartoon and sat there and watched with me, when i finally stopped crying i went to bed.. and lay there for like half and hour cause i didnt feel like sleeping... then i suddenly saw light from the outside. The sun wan rising... I had kept my grandpa up the whole night but you know what?? He never complained...
And another thing.. it's my dad's job.. Ugh.. i don't feel like thinking about this.. but.. let's just make it short... my dad will not have a job soon and i blame myself because, i tried but didn't speak out enough on this issue... so now, disaster... UGH!!! FML= FUCK MY LIFE!!!

There's a good thing tho, my toe is okay now.. I injured it during sport's day and Cynthia is in chung hua now!! Yay!!
and there is one thing I'm not so sure of, I got a "luahan cinta" erm.. in english it's ..... like a dude came and told me he liked me after finding out me and my ex broke up.. and he wanted to ask me to be his gf.. but I'm not sure.. should I? Is it too soon?? He's really sweet and stuff, you know? But, about the whole connection.. the whole feelings thing.. I'm not sure.. Should I?? Is it too soon to get a new bf?? I mean, I need to decide when I think I've given my ex enough time.. Cause it would be unfair to him if like, we broke up and i got another bf directly after that... it's very disrespectful, right??
What should I do??? HHHMmmm... Hope the answer will come to me.... Wish me luck , guys :D

Confused and Sad CHICK!!

Pain troubles

2011-06-27T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie.. I hurt my leg today... D: not sure if i can still run on sports day this monday.. It's like it doesn't hurt at all and then suddenly and lightning flash of pain will shoot up through my leg and then my right leg joint will go limp and I'd have to depend on my left leg to hold myself up or lean on something.. Then I would have to wait there till the pain goes away and I can move my leg again.. I almost fell down the stairs that day because of this.. Scary
What do I do bloggie?? I don't want people to know :s But if i pretend to be strong, if something really goes wrong, no one will know about this... What to do!! Dilemma... furthur more, there are cuts down my leg.. I don't know what happened but i realised i had them during Science class just now.. It hurt a lot and bleed a little. So, should I tell? Or should I not?

A Tip To Saving Money!!

2011-06-26T21:42:00.005+08:00

Hey bloggie... It's currently 9.43 pm and I'm suppose to be going to bed now.. since I've made up my mind to get more sleep...

So, anyways.. I just realised that there is a way for me to save money.. Wanna hear it? Will it just hit me like a few minutes ago.. You see, my mummy gave me money for 2 weeks and I looked at it and was like.. Goodness... I'm pretty sure if im not careful, this money is going to disappear without me realizing a thing. So, I decided to take half of it away and save it because you see, I am a lazy person. So, usually if I check my purse and I don't have enough money, I wouldn't buy expensive stuff and try to cut down as much as possible but if i see that I have lots of cash in my purse, then I'd even treat my friends to drinks.. which is where majority of my money went when I was 12. I treated my friends drinks almost everyday back then.. So anyways, i'd realise at school that I am lacking cash and spend less and when I get back I will of course forget to get more from my savings and ta-da.. The Cash Is Save =) Mission accomplished!!!

So, Just remember..

get your purse and your little piggy bank out
Take out all the coins and cash out of your purse or wallet
Lay it out and plan.. ( I decided to leave a few one-sies and a couple of ten-sies in mine)
Put the amount you intend to spend that week in your wallet/purse and put the remains in your piggy bank
Place your piggy bank somewhere hard to reach..(if you are the type of person that tends to take more and more money out of your piggy bank)
Whenever you wanna buy something remind yourself that all the money in that purse is ALL that you can spend that week and that it is possible to survive with that amount because you have carefully planned it out
VIOLA!!! Money saved ☺ simple eh?

Hope this helps people who have money saving problems like ♫ lil' 'ol me ♪

What was suppose to be the best day of the year 2011

2011-06-21T19:36:00.005+08:00

hey bloggie... today is 21st June 2011, me and bibi's 1 year anniversary
I can finally say that it's over... He beat me to it by one week.. The plan was to talk about the relationship with him today, and decide weather or not it was time to let go of it. I would've been ready to be strong and let it go by today... of course it would've been better if we managed to talk it out and start the relationship over but i mean in case the convo had went the other way, I would've been ready.. but he beat me to it by a week.. He's realized that he's stopped loving me and doesn't want me anymore. You know I would've been okay if he'd told me that straight up but you see... he didn't.. I was led on for weeks.. wondering why he wasn't answering my calls and texts and in the end I had to ask him before I got my answer... It hurts because it makes me feels like "what? we've been together for almost a year. We've been through so much together. You were the first boy I'd ever say "I love you" to and actually meant it. You were the first boy that hugged me. The first that actually make me cry. You were the one I shared my first kiss with and now I don't even mean enough to you for you to tell me "Babe, I think it's time we break up" or something like that. Just one sentence. Am I not even worth that much to you? Were you just playing with me all along. Did I really mean that little to you?".
I've cried all and even more tears than I should for a person like you. It's time I stopped. I've finally figured it out. I was suppose to be ready for a break up on this date. So, after today. I will not allow myself to cry over a scum like you. Don't get me wrong.. I still love you but enough's enough. If you don't want me, fine. It's up to you. I've done and sacrificed enough for you. Maybe this is a sign from God to get my priorities right and because I didn't want to let you go, he made you let me go. So, from the way I see it, you're not one of the priorities that God wants for me but either way I'll continue praying for God to do his will and maybe someday if God forbids we will be together once again. So, maybe forever or maybe only for now. Goodbye, My First Love.

See, the pendant above? As long as I'm wearing the pendant. I will keep the few promises I made to you. I will not do anything that may hurt your family. I will continue protecting you. I will continue to watch over you. I will do no severe harm to you. I will not take revenge on you. And I'll be there if you ever need me. Weather to just talk, help with something or if your parents ever fight again and you're afraid. If that ever happens. Call me at anytime. I'll open my heart for you, comfort you and be there for you. As long as I'm wearing the pendant, I still love you. I still have feelings for you. I hope if someday you see it on my neck, I pray that you wouldn't do anything to hurt me. I pray that you won't treat me like a stranger but more as your bestfriend.

I love you, first love. I do admit I do regret some of the things we did but I'll have to live with it. I wanna also mentioned that he held my hand in the van just now. When he did, I felt safe again. I didn't feel alone anymore. I haven't felt that much comfort for such a long time that I think I actually froze there for some time. But when it dawned upon me that even though this means so much for me, to him it's just a way to get me to shut up. He doesn't feel the same way about it as I do. So, even though I didn't want to, I pulled away. I wish I could cuddle in those arms right now... but it's too late...

With the pendant around my neck,
I wish to hug you goodbye but because I can't, the best i can do it bid you Goodbye and hope that you will keep your promises and be JUST my bestfriend again.

Effect of a Smile

2011-06-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions..

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake,

literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then
even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance......

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching..

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford.

(If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up,

they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the
restaurant were set on me, judging
my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son...

When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said,

'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given, were we able to give..

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class,

with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person

who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS -

NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

There is an Angel sent to watch over you.

In order for her to work,

you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life,

but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart

To handle yourself, use your head...

To handle others, use your heart.

God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

NiNi and BiBi's family

2011-06-17T20:38:00.007+08:00

Honey and Hubby first picture together <3

Mwahxx :D

My baby so small.. but I still love her

Look alike hor?? ;D

Mummy and Baby <3

Pongu look and cammie >.<

Mummy and Ponga

My Baby Penguins <3 Pongu and Ponga

Pongu blocking camera lens.. naughty boy XD

Family picture.. daddy's missing D: aww...

Hehe XD

See baby, with daddy gone, mummy will still care for you.. Grow up to be big and strong, okay?? Maybe someday daddy will come home again.. Mwahxx.. Love you, ponga, pongu and Bibi

It doesn't matter anymore....

2011-06-16T19:53:00.002+08:00

I realized that nowadays when anyone praises me about physical appearances, It doesn't matter to me anymore because those praises don't come from the lips that I want them from... Joshua Lee my primary schoolmate just told me that he saw me yesterday crossing the road and said I looked "Hot"... Nab told me yesterday that her new friends in KL saw my picture the other day and they all agreed that I was pretty, beautiful but I don't feel anything. It doesn't matter what other people think of me anymore. I think back and remember all those compliments from other guys.. "Beautiful" "Pretty" "Sexy" "Awesome" "Gorgeous".... and i think back at how i felt when they said them... and i found out one thing... everytime a guy said something like that. A little happiness would appear in my heart but the feeling of happiness gained when many of them said that could not compare to the feeling of happiness I had when HE called me "Cute". There's only one person that can make me feel like flying or blow me down with one word... That person is him and now, he's against me...

Breakeven

2011-06-16T19:11:00.003+08:00

This week **** has been giving me a hard time.. I went to school with swollen eyes twice.. but I'm not here to talk about it... Today I followed **** home again. He fell asleep in the van, his dad went down to buy something so I turned and looked at his sleeping face and I must say, to see it live it so much better than through the webcam... When I saw that adorable face, my heart instantly melted. All the anger I had kept inside, all the hatred, all the reminders that he isn't mine, all the nerves that ties me around so tight so, I wouldn't see him as anyone special. That he didn't exist at all. That he meant nothing, everything just melted away... It worked at school but having him next to me, just sleeping with the innocent face of his, his arms and legs twitching one in a while, my heart, my feelings that I tied so tightly broke out... At that moment, the only thing in my head was.. "This adorable baby is mine" I felt like kissing him on his cheek and playing with his hair at that moment but of course my happiness never lasts because the more I stare at him, the more I think and realize that "no, he isn't mine, not anymore. This person used to love me, used to care but not anymore. He hates me. He wishes for me to just disappear. and if i died the very next day, i can bet that he won't mind." I almost teared when that fact dawned upon me. The tears started to form in my eyes. So, I quickly thought of something else. It would be embarrassing if he suddenly woke up to see me crying next to him, right? He wouldn't give a damn. So I remember I saw a new scar on his arm.. Yes, it's silly. I can see and recognize which scars are new and old on him.. It's because I used to stare at his arms all the time. Seeing all the scars from the cuts that were caused by other players when he played bball, scars from girls that used to pinch him till it bruised and bleed. I remembered that when we were still very much in love, Id kiss his scars hoping that someday I'd see it go away and I'd be able to tell him "Hey Bibi, see? There used to be a scar here you know? But I kissed it and now it's gone. Ta-da!" Anyways, on Monday I saw a new scar on his wrist. It was a very minute one but it was new. I think he must've gotten it during the holidays. but when i wanted to asked him about it, he just ignored me. So, I took the opportunity to examine it. He had his arms crossed so it looked like a perfect circle scar and for a second I thought that he'd been smoking but i pulled his arm out and examined it. It was heart shaped. Later on, his dad got back in and drove to his lil bro's school. On the way there, I don't know somehow, some person was toying with me up in heaven I think but he rested his head on my shoulder and outside I just acted cool infront of his dad but inside I was like "OMGEE!! What am I to do >.<" i could feel my heart beating in my chest all over again. It was the same feeling when he first hugged me. The comforting warmth. I didn't want it to end but I knew it was wrong because, he doesn't love me. He doesn't want this. He doesn't wan to touch me. He doesn't even want to look at me. So, I had to stop it because I didn't want to believe something that wasn't happening. So, when his dad was looking for his bro, I poked his fingers hoping he'd wake up or at least move his head of my shoulder but to my shock, he held my hand in his and when i poked his hand again, he held my finger in this hand like how a baby would hold a person's one finger in his/her clutched hand. At that moment I almost lost it. I can't have feelings for him anymore or it would kill me bit by bit from the inside. So, with one move i moved his hand like a lot and he lifted his head like 1 cm above my shoulder then fell back down again. I winced cause his head was pretty heavy on my shoulder. He felt me wince and got up. When he saw my face, he quickly moved closer to the door and away from me. He avoided my gaze. I felt so hurt because I had allowed my feelings to play with my head and what he did snapped me back to reality. He's a different person from before and things will never ever be the same between us again... but even when I know that's true, I really don't want to let him go. I'm in a dilemma. The worst part is that even though it's killing me inside, I know he isn't bothered at all... The song "The Script" wrote was was right... "When a heart breaks, It don't break even". Apparently I got the worse half...

What's up!!

2011-06-12T21:59:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie.. its Yve.. I am actually speed typing at the moment... Cause even tho it's already 10 pm and Im suppose to off to bed now because tmr will be the first day of school after a long holiday.. but i suddenly felt that i needed to update you.. so, we woke up at around 3.30 am yesteraday morning and got on the plane and landed in brunei 2 hrs and 15 mins later.. I almost couldnt go on board the plane cause if i was a west-malaysian, for me to fly to Brunei, my passport would have to expire in 6 months min... but my passport will expire in less than 6 months but in the end we got thru cause miri and brunei are literally neighbours and we were just gonna make a transition thru brunei back to miri.. so they let me on.. PHEW!!! THANK GOD!! it scared me for a minute.. anyways... I'm exhausted... This trip i travelled to 3 different states and 1 different country.. cool eh?? I also met daniel kor kor and angel the night before we came back to Miri.. Daniel looks shorter.. cause I GREW!!! HEHEHEHEHE!!!! :3 It's so awesome to meet them agn... We watched Narnia 3.. the movie was awesome!!! :P Anyways bloggie.. I gotta go rest (read comic) now and later on go to sleep.. I am a little bit worried about my results that ill be receiving this week but you know what?? I'm gonna try my best to care... I WILL DO BETTER the next exam.. THIS I PROMISE YOU!!!

Bye!! comic time..

BOOGIEEE OUT~!!! ♥

Bibi, my hubby

2011-06-07T01:58:00.003+08:00

Bloggie... I'm sad.. wanna know why?? D: I saw this awesome gift.. It was like this keychain thing.. It was cool... and the people would custom make it for you and i was like.. Hmm perfect gift for Bibi.. daddy would buy it for me.. I just would say Bibi is my friend's nickname but.. :( I couldnt get it cause we needed to wait an hour for it to be done... and it was like 11pm.. so we had to go.. so, i didnt get it ;( I wanted to get it like BIBI(heartshape) but... D: Tak jadi... awww.... Bibi :(

I hope when we get to terengganu , i will still have a chance to buy it..

Bloggie, Ive actually been feeling very down lately.. I keep thinking about bibi.. he doesnt return my texts or calls... Maybe he doesnt love me anymore.. but when i ask him if he wants to break, he don wan... then he just continues on as if i dont exist... I'm really sad la bloggie.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know what he's thinking... Weather or not to move on also I don't know.. I don't wanna move on bha.. I wanna stay with bibi... but if bibi don't wan me... then I also dono where else to go... I wana stay with bibi.. but bibi like... don want me anymore.... It hurts...

Kla bloggie... it;s 2.04am and i can't sleep.. just sad...

nite bloggie..

First day of Trip

2011-06-04T11:24:00.004+08:00

On the way to Kuching... We took 2 planes... It was like a transition kinda thing? We went from Miri to Kuching then Kuching to KL...

Pictures should be self-explanatory :P

Before and After flight

2011-06-01T23:26:00.004+08:00

Hey Bloggie.. So, I pretty much just reached KL like... a few minutes ago?? I haven't even changed my clothes yet.. I am currently uploading the pictures i took today into my lappy... Hey, It's done!!

So, I'm completely exhausted.. I mean listen to this.. we got on the plane and left Miri at like 6.15 we then had to go to Kuching and waited for like 15 minutes?? to get on the EXACT same plane to fly to KL.. Tiring... and then when we reached KL airport.. It took us like about an hour to get to my cuzzie's house... I'm so TIRED!!!! Let me show you how I looked like before we left the house and how I look right now....

Took so much energy to take this... so tired

This is b4... ta-da....

In my room :P

See?? Crappy eh... I'm feeding myself gummies to stay awake.. i actually thought of typing the whole day out today but I suddenly feel extremely lazy... I'm the only one in the room.. ALL ALONE.. the rest are hanging out with my cuzzies and their parents in the living room downstairs..

I guess 'll hea don down after the pictures are done uploading...

2011-05-31T22:10:00.001+08:00

I'm so lazy to pack!!!

Don't Have Time?? MAKE Time

2011-05-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her 5-year old son waiting for her at the door.

SON: 'Mummy, may I ask you a question?'

MUM: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.

SON: 'Mummy, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the woman said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'If you must know, I make RM 50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Mummy, may I please borrow RM 25?'

The mother was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down, and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that RM 25 and he really didn't ask for money very often . The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' She asked.

'No Mummy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the woman. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the RM 25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you Mummy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the mother grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Mummy, I have RM 50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The mother was crushed. She put his arms around her little son, and she begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that RM 50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

You Leave Me Breathless

2011-05-30T21:04:00.004+08:00

I love this song!!

Breathless by Shayne Ward!!!

Here are the lyrics:

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

[Chorus]

This song is so sweet.. ♥ it hehehe~~

anyways.. if you guys wanna go check it out.. here's the awesome link to this awesome song

It's the best quality I've found so far.. You see, because it wasn't like a major hit or anything so... not many copies of it we're posted online.. but anyways hope you will love it as much as I do.. I actually came across this song through the korean drama, I talked about several posts ago?? It's was like the background music for a few scenes.. and I fell in love with it.. And I love the music video because even though the girl in the video was wearing skimpy clothes, he did not try anything, he just hugged her and did really sweet things.. it was nice...

If you're a dude, sing it to your girl, alright? I hope mine sings this to me.. but I think I'm pushing it too far.. He won't even text me back or return my calls. :(

My Art Exam XD

2011-05-30T20:44:00.006+08:00

So um.. hehe.. How do I say this.. We had very interesting Topics for out art exam this time... but I picked the strangest one.. It's strange cause the question never enforced a wide range of creativity in our question.. It would usually be like "draw local fruit" "draw ur hometown" "draw a beach" or something like dat.. you get what I mean right? down right standard boring-ness.. but this time.. when i saw the question paper (bibi sent it to me thru mail cause I was in Betong for debate when they got it) Thanks Hunn!! Anyways... this time, one of the question was to draw aliens on a planet ... (in between rocks) yea the rock part sucked... but Wow!! Never have i seen this question come up before... so cool and i tried to doodle a bit.. thinking abt aliens.. and um... this is what came out of my random, add here add there ;) Don't laugh oky?? I admit that art isn't one of majors...

WARNING: These pictures are not responsible for any damage it may cause to your eyes or your health. If you have sensitive eyes, please look away. If you easily laugh historically, don't scroll down.. If not, Go Ahead :D and for the really daring.. try to understand what it's suppose to be .. Good Luck!!!! *You have been warned!

This is suppose to be two aliens that have no arms and use their hair as their hands??

A baby Alien looking at their ruler/savior (notice how she's a woman)

This is some light effect thing.. just imagine it glow :3

This is the whole piece of paper

A "tree"

I like this.. and alien chick next to a lamp post

EVIL alien couple.. They were actually cute and adorable but my sis drew a frown, and an wicked smile on them... The wife is so.... awesome while the dude is just... an organic shape :P

Alien boy giving alien girl "flowers"

Weird horse thing.. I don't know.. i started of with the head, gave it funny legs, with funny arms and it looked imbalanced so gave it a sexy-assed hand!! HAHA

PS. The thing that i actually passed up to teacher looked nothing like these... ;P

He's Beautiful

2011-05-30T20:22:00.002+08:00

When I was watching the korean drama "he's beautiful" yesterday.. well actually me and celine re-watched it because last time we watched it on Youtube and we had to wait for it to load for a really long time so it wasn't that enjoyable... Celine found that same series in the stores, so she bought it and so we watched it.. duh... and i realised that I watched this exact drama a year ago during THIS holiday.. This 2-weeks holiday.. Wanna know how i remember?? I remember cause that time I started to like Bibi and he was really disappointed when I payed attention to the drama... Sorry baby >.< But yea, that's how I remember it .. I remember he hated it cause it was the only thing that took my attention away from him... I did try to get him to watch it.. but he didn't want to.. Someday.. I'll get him to watch it :P Just wait, babe... hehehe~~ we can watch together :3

Chick's out.. Peace!!

Stuff??

2011-05-28T19:19:00.006+08:00

I'm watching You Are Beautiful.. it's an awesome korean drama :) hehehe... I feel so much better than just now.. and this movie is so freaking stupid and sad that it's awesome.. I'm being sucked into this korean drama thing.. good or bad?? I don't know.. but me and daddy haven't spoken to each other yet but.. nevermind la.. better than me going totally bizerk right?? So, it's oky i guess... ;) haih... and bibi is giving me such a hard time... hmm.. what to do? The only thing that should be done to a kid is to play with them... But i've got nothing to play with him anymore.. he's gone to this totally not fun, not funny, emo douche... So yea, I was hurt for awhile that he got so douchy but what to do?? during that time, I had an idea... and this is it.. :D

Sounds kinky.. anyways... back to the drama :D

Bye!!

Moving!!

2011-05-28T15:19:00.002+08:00

Hey... Just a little update.. I plan to chg my blog's link soon... So um... yea... Cause some unwanted people are viewing my blog.. and so, I'm gonna change it =3 sorry for the inconvenience caused by this... but I need to changed it... So, If you guys would still go looking for this blog at it's soon to be new location, that would be awesome, cause then it's be really faithful of you guys.. but if you're like me, and is too lazy to go hunting this blog down, I understand.. Either ways thanks for supporting me so far... and even more thanks to those who actually leave me something down at the chatbox.. Just letting you guys know, I read every single one of them and I'm sorry if you left your blog link and i didnt follow it.. but like i have said before, for some reason, i think in my country, when I click ur name, they say like "this function is no available" something like dat.. so i'm sorry... If you really wan me to go see and follow it... you could put it directly in the chat box... or put it as a comment in this post... and I promise I'll see it.., So thanks for the support everyone... that supports me :D

Hope to see you after my blog moves ;)

PS. The time I will change the link is still not yet determined... so it could be anytime...

Thats all for now.. Bye!! :D

Speaking My Mind

2011-05-28T09:57:00.004+08:00

Hey bloggie... It's Yve... again.. well, of course it's me, it's my blog... anyways this post will be one of my, Speaking my Mind posts.. It means that I have no plan whatsoever what I'm gonna write, what ever pops into mind will be typed out.. sounds simple right??

So anyways it is currently 9.58 am Saturday, the first day of Gawai Holiday!!! yay!! Holiday.. Sis and me watched 4 episodes of Korean drama yesterday and slept at around 11 something..

I gotta go out now.. :D Go eat breakfast... really hungry ;) Wish everyone a happy holidays!!!!

My failed revision time

2011-05-26T22:04:00.004+08:00

I have just given up on studying KH =.="" So Boring.. don't even knw what to read and you knw what?? I have only just finished ... not reading but flipping thru the form 2 chapters.. haven't even touched the form 1 chaps but it's oky la... if i fail... There's always the enxt exam :) Moving on to my always last minute enemy, SEJARAH.. Hope someday I will be like the British dude and Sejarah will be like the sultan brunei.. Me with guns and it with kris-es only.. a battle i will comfirm win... I freakin' long for that day.. till that day comes, CURSE YOU SEJARAH!!!

So close yet so far

2011-05-26T18:41:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie!!!

Guess what?! it's Thursday!!! The second last day of exam.. which means, tomorrow will be the last day!!! WOOOHOO MERDEKA!!! Can you imagine?? In 24 hours from now I'd be sleeping in my comfy bed to start off my 2 weeks holiday!!! Half of my brain is already floating in paradise :D Cloud 9, no? What sucks is that other schools finished their exams off today and won't have school exams tomorrow... so people in my class needs to suffer an extra day and i need to suffer an hour and 15 minutes longer than everyone else... SUCKS for me cause I have not done by SJ test yet =.=" I'm suppose to be studying SJ, KH and PM now.. but Yvonne's lady :(

Well... Peace out!!! I'm out Cloud 9 BABEHH!!!

Crazy HIGH Moments like these....

2011-05-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hey Bloggie!!! It's mui agn ;) I'm kinda waiting for my internet to detect itself... i know right?? Whaaaaattttt...??? But anyways my lappy is identifying so, i need to wait... I hope it workds this time because last time i tried it, the internet was like "local only" local only" and that really pissed me off

I mean, what the point of saying local only?? with the internet connection at the local only status, we can't go on the internet anyways!! Darn, the internet can't be connected... Let be troubleshoot this thing...

So anyways.. HEEYYYY!!!! We're back from Betong!! Fun trip you know?? Sitting on yo ass for like umm... 7 am till 6 something PM!! Totally"fun".. Nah that was exaggerating.. but the time was correct tho. We were in the van for that amount of time.. I know, long much??

But I did check on it on the map and guess what?? We did travel an aweful long way.. I mean I didnt realise we went so far till I tried studying my Geo yesterday and found our state's map and was like OMG!!! We went that far?!

Then being the short-attention-span person i am, I got distracted from studying my GEO and started tracing the route we "supposedly" took to Betong... and the embarassing thing is that i got so caught up in it, i started making car noises like.. "VRRRROOOMMMM!!! VRROOOMM!!" Hehe XDD Childish me :P

On our way back from Betong Adeela even said that her butt felt FLATT!!! AHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! XDD Ohya, In Sibu we ate.... what was it called again?? Kompia?? Anyways, it was yummy!! and the way it was made was so fascinating.. You see they take this thing and put that thing with the other thing... and uses another thing to pick the other thing

to put it in the "Sexy and hot" other thing... Get what I'm saying?? Of course not!! I'm not even sure what I, myself is saying but it's actually like this.. they make the dough thingy which mainly.. well not mainly I think it ONLY contains... flour, salt and sesame seeds... But MAN.. It was appetizing.. I feel so sakai because I've never tasted it before..

and when i first ate it i was like yummy!! I wANNA BUY!! and i bought 15 pieces (running short on cash) and was chewing on it like there was no tomorrow (exageration)

MY INternET is still not WORKING!!! DAYYUMMM!!!! :( If i don't get the internet working, I have to go back and study!!! NOOOOO!!!! YVONNNE NO LIKEY STUDY!!! >.< STUDY NO FUN!!! There should be some campaign that says "Say "no" to studying" or something.. I would definitely be supporting it

I'd be one of those protesters on the street holding up some sexy-ass sign going "Study, no, no!!" or "Studying kills lives" or something similar to that :PP Wonder why I'm feeling High?? WEEEEEEREEEEEEEEE~~~

:D I feel so gayy =/=""...... Internet... DAMN YOU!!! I've given up on you wireless, I'm going for broadband.. Consider yourself officially DUMPED... for today :P

Yay!! found my broadband :D loading loading loading.. please work... I'm just typing out whatever comes in mind at the moment FYI... hmm.. wonder what I'll do if i fail my subjects.. I'd break down, maybe cry.. eat food, sleep, watch tv, eat, sleep, eat, jump around like a maniac, annoy people, talk, eat, sleep, wake up late, draw, eat, watch spongebob, eat, see glee, eat, eat ,eat ,eat...

PERFECT PLAN!!! Don't you agree?? Eating makes my world go round?? HEHE ..... D:< My BROADBAND IS FAILING ME!!!! NOOOO!!!!!! ;'( Why must life be so cruel!!!

What else to talk about eh.. while my BROADBAND CONTINUES TO FAIL ME?! ... Oh!! did i mention we won the competition?? WHo knew I was stupid enough to forget the most important highlight of the trip? That's so unlike... Okay, scratch that.. THat's totally me...

So yea, we won. I got a shiny trophy :D and a cert... they're pretty... with fancy stuff on it.. LOL I'm seriously high.. I must've eaten too many sweets this afternoon... LALALALALALA~

INTERNET!!! LALALALALA!!! EXAM!!! LALALALALA!!! NATIONALS!!! LALALALA!! FOOD!!! ... FOOD!! hehehe.. I wanna eat cheezels but mummy won't let be :( meanie ;'( starving children is not a good habit...

THAT IS IT!!! I"M GIVING UP ON YOU BROADBAND!!! I'm going for the direct connection wire thing.. YAY!!! IT WORKS.. (does retarded victory dance) lalalala :D

I took some piccies @ Betong but I have not gotten around to load it to my lappy yet so... slowly wait la, ya?? I'm having exams this weeka (which im suppose to be studying for this very minute but who cares??

Besides, my mum, my dad, me, people, the world.. Just loggen in to blogger.. type to cut and paste this baby into it..

So that's all for now,, Buh Bye!!

Hey!! Nicholas approved my friend request on FB.. So tempted to stalk.. but i need to study :(... To stalk or not to stalk... sTALK!!! hehehe

Bye, Buh bye now, Bye, Buh bye, Ok, Buh BYE!!!

Stuck in the Moment

2011-05-19T21:01:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie… it’s 8.57 pm and Im still at Betong.. Today we won both rounds so means were up for finals tomorrow.. Excited XD Just now I could not get in the room cause Amalia was asleep in it and I had no key to get it.. I whammed on the door for like an awfully long time before I finally called adeela to come.. and adeela couldn’t get her up too so in the end the dude behind the counter helped get the extra set of keys and opened the door.. I tried opening my gg book to study just now.. guess what?? Didn’t work.. lazy =.=””

For some reason, Bibi didn’t turn on his phone… I can’t reach him.. He’s probably studying right? But before this he always kept his phone on.. To be frank, I’m really worried.. I mean what if he’s hurt?? That little kid can’t take care of himself L Aww… I hope he’s okay…

Anyways… tomorrow is the first day of exam and I won’t be taking it but bibi is.. I hope he does well.. He’s such a little nerd you know? It’s kinda cute… Gambateh, bibi.. You’ll do great!! Hope your safe...

Debate States

2011-05-17T15:51:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie!!!

Sorry I haven't been typing here in a while and stuff but i have a good reason... >.<

I was lazy and busy :P

Anyways i just wanted to drop by and tell you that I'll be leaving for betong (somehwere near Kuching tomorrow morning... I will only arrive there at around 9 perhaps?? It's so long!! I have no idea what im gonna do on the van for hours... i guess ill try and hit the books... Trust me, i dont want to but I MUST.. I mean im gonna miss the first day of exams =.. so yea... Study study study.. We're going there for Debate agn. STATES!! BOOYEAH BABEHH!!! Tht's all for now... i gotta go continue to pack ;)

Cam-whoring when I'm suppose to be studying

2011-05-05T19:54:00.004+08:00

Smile :)

Failed "whip my hair" attempt

F-O-R-E-H-E-A-D!!

Asian eyes =.=

Partially puffle fish face??

Me and little El Baldie :P

Me and Yassie :D

Aww... Yassie looks so cute :3

Thinking on how to pretend to think ...

First capture.. SMILE!!

Tada... So I was bored... and i was using my lappy as usual... but i got bored and was too lazy to do my homework and extra work stuff so.. i took these to pictures for fun.. And im here to share :P

So, ta-da fresh out of the oven...

I'm such a little cam-whore.. and i'm proud of it??

haha.. That's all!!

Being Lovely Fat-assed Me

2011-05-05T14:48:00.005+08:00

Hey bloggie.. It is now 2.48 pm on a Thursday afternoon and i'm well rested... :)

I didnt go to school today, i woke up with a migraine again.. dang... but i feel much better now after taking my... "drugs" bwahahaha~~~ anyways so i was on my bed eating a packet of Cheezles and drinking a bottle of Pepsi Twist... i remembered one of my insecurities... my legs...

Yes, I'm not afraid to admit that i have fat legs.. it's sort of inherited meaning it's a gene thing.. and it doesn't help much that my little sis has the legs of a... i wouldn't say fox.. maybe a bird?? anyways it's skinny.. actually her whole body is skinny... Let me show you a picture of her.... wait i gonna find one....

Yep.. that's her.. that's my skinny-assed sister... The only place on her body that seems to enlarges after she eats is her stomach but that isn't really a problem for her because for some reason when we (me and my little sis) like for example eat a huge dinner till we feel like our stomaches want to explode.. we'd just go to bed with those balloons and in the morning they'd both be gone.. so yay!! No tummy problem for us but I have fat at other places while she looks like if she lost anymore she'd be a skeleton =.=" It also doesn't help that i was born with a naturally large bone structure... i've got pretty broad shoulders for some it's a bonus but for me, it's not quite working.. I mean try thinking this.. when i was younger i was... wouldn't say manly cause i can't even call anyone in my current class a man yet so... boyish?? yea, ill go with that.. I was more boyish than most boys in my year... and that's saying something.. but now it's like the growing age for boys... so i'm like a midget boy??? XDD Okay so moving on... I was like looking up on the internet ways to reduce the amount of fat in my body since there is no possible way to suddenly shrink the size and weight of my bones.. so i have no choice but to work with them... So anyways i was looking it up and found something very interesting.. I'm actually a... Endomorph or a Mesomorph.. I'm not because I have some endomorph characteristics and some mesomorph characteristics... because I match quite a few of the mesomorph characteristics except that I have a difficulty of keeping lost weight off and that I'm not an athlete... So, anyways... here are the links....

Wanna know more about

Mesomorphs?? (women with hourglass figure & men with V or rectangle figure) Click here
Endomorphs?? (women with pear-shaped body & men with round body) Click here
Ectomorphs?? (people with ruler-shaped bodies, practically just like does skinny-assed models) Click here

I think I lean more towards the Mesomorph people but still a bit to the Endomorph... But i'm most definitly sure I am not an Ectomorph... cause ectomorphs have small chests and small butts... and I can say that i definitely have boobs and an ASS!!! Thank you ;)

ANGRY!!!!

2011-04-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

I'm so angry right now.. wanna know with who?? My dad!! Why?? Because we were suppose to go and feed Panda just now at around 5 but he went to play badminton so okay, i let that go.. I dont mind. But he has only just left now to go feed him.. It's already like 8.45 pm!!! do u kn0w how late we are?? more than 3 hours yea!! so, okay im not too happy but i can chill with that but when i was playing game, my mum called and so i passed the phone to my sis since i couldnt pause the game... He came to me and was like "ask your mum where her car key is" and I told him that she most probably brought the key with her to Kching since she's got common sense and wont be dumb enough to leave it at home and that the other set of the keys are suppose to be with him. But he still insisted that i asked her.. so i told him to tell my sis cause she was still on the phone with my mum at that moment... but did he listen?? HELL NO!!! A minute after my sister put the phone down he came to me and was like "Yvonne, STOP THE GAME NOW. I told you to go ask your mum where the keys were" That made me snap.. I mean WTH i already told him to tell my sis to ask that cause she was already ON THE PHONE AT THAT VERY MOMENT... so I yelled back "I ALREADY TOLD YOU TO TELL CELINE!!! SHE WAS ON THE PHONE WITH MUM JUST NOW. WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK HER" and he said "Just call" then he just went into the room and i heard him say "haiya this Yvonne".. He dare haiya me?? He was the one being ridiculous.. but i let that one go.. I went and called my mum like 13 times before she finally picked up and guess wat? I was right.. she didnt leave her car keys at home and the other set was with my dad but he was so old and forgetful to remember that. So i went into the room and told him that i was right.. and you know what he said??? "Well, I don't know where it is.. You all go find it first or else i won't send you over to mum's house" I was thinking like What kind of Bullshit is this??!! Does he WANT Panda to starve?!! me and my bro were mad at this.. he was like "Hish this papa... he himself lost it want us to find it while he lies down on the bed" which was true.. then i told celine to help us find it and so did Melanie...

I then barged into the room again checking the safe box when my dad got off the phone and was like "it's with Ah Heng", my cousin. Oh haha!! so now it's with ah heng, okay let's go, right?? but NOOO he just continued to lay his ass on the bed.. and i was like "so how? When are u going to send us over' and he didnt answer so i nudged my bro... He asked again but more gently.. still no answer so i said Do you want Panda to die?? with that i left the room bringing my sister and brother along leaving him in silence... A few minutes later he came out with his car keys and went to turn on the engine without saying a word..

Oh, he's back.. i'm still mad..

Say 'NO' To Child Abuse!!

2011-04-30T13:37:00.002+08:00

This is Clayton. He is six years old. One day, his mother brought him to his fathers house, and told him she would come back to get him. She never did. Clayton loved his father, until he got re-married, to his new step-mother, Carmen. Clayton endured a horrible fate. They wrapped in a wire fence and locked it with chains, so he couldn’t sit down. Then, they locked him inside of the closet, the hot, dark, airless closet. Sometimes they didn’t feed him for more then 24 hours at a time. He ate the paper of the floor, and walls of the closet. Sometimes, they gave him food, coated with burning sauce, and no water. When he had to go to the bathroom, he had to go on himself, then his ‘parents’ would rub his poo on his face, sometimes getting in his mouth. When he tried screaming to get out, his father would open the closet, and pee on him. Sometimes taking a cup of pee, and pouring it over his head. Other times, they would shove dish soap into his mouth. And leave it there without rinsing it out. The little boy would beg and scream to be free. One person heard his screams, and she, too, was a child. The little boys step-sister, who would take him out of the closet and feed him, when there parents left. But she couldn’t take it anymore. She ran away. Carmen, her step-mother, alerted the police of where she might be hiding. They found her. She begged them not to take her back, also telling him what they have been doing to Clayton. After months of this happening, the parents were only sentenced 4 & 1/2 year in prison. Clayton’s father, was released after 6 months. Carmen, after 2 years. Reblog if you’re against child abuse.

Girl Out Lookin' For New Love

2011-04-30T13:17:00.004+08:00

Name: Yvonne

Age: 14

Salary: Love her everyday

Bonus: Giving her gifts and compliments

Height: She's sensitive about that

Weight: Her favorite quote "Size or weight doesn't matter... What matters is shape"

Likes: Music, Comedy movies, hanging out, freestyling

Dislikes: Sad movies (cause it makes her cry), homework, being alone when she needs someone, remembering painful memories

Hates: Crying, douche bags, bitches, backstabbers, satan

Health condition: Contains a shattered heart that needs fixing badly...

Attitude: Not your ordinary girl, loves food, very open-minded, loud and freaky, sometimes sassy ;)

Looking for: Nice guy that will love her right...

ps.. this is a joke.. i am looking for someone but i'm taking my time ;)

Update!!! 30th March

2011-04-30T13:08:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie~~

It's now 1.08 pm at the moment...

Mum left for the airport around 40 mins ago i guess?? She's going to see my grandfather...

Yian thought her how to make something which she calls a "magic potion". but its actually just this chinese remedy thing which ppl claim can cure cancer.. so my mum is gonna try giving it to my grandfather.. hopefully he'll get well.. it's so hard to find the ingrediants for the magic potion you know?? anyways i just called cong to tell my dad to pick us.. So, we're waiting for them to come get us.. Later tonight we need to come back here and feed Panda, our new puppy :)

so yea, many stuff happened these few days.. I hope to be able to update them ASAP...

I'm currently listening to the song "love live woe" it's totally Awesome... well in my opinion it is.. so yea.. hope u like it and... I hope to be updating soon... no promises tho.. oky?

Mwahxx...

Needing love at the moment.. since i ain't got a Bf no more.. but i'll talk more about it in another post...

Bye all ;)

Remember to live you life the way you want..

and live it to the fullest!!!

Me and my lil sis

2011-04-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

姐姐和妹妹

I just editted that pic... nice huh?? It's me and my little sister... we took about 8 photos before she left with my dad.. she missed dear daddy, so she called him to pick her up.. Now, im alone... D= Missing my baby sister =C and as for those chinese characters.. :) im glad to say that I rmb enough of my um... 10 minus 3 equals??? ......7!! 7 years of learning chinese to know that that means big sis and lil sis :) jie jie he mei mei <3

Missing her so badly now.. Dayyum :(

LolliCraft's I (heart) handmade giveaway

2011-04-22T20:44:00.006+08:00

Hi everyone <3

I just checked out my dear friend, Joel's new blog that was created especially for giveaway contests.. and I found this giveaway contest... I feel like this contest is really simple to join and the presents are really cute and awesome.. So, for the first time ever.. I'm gonna try my luck :P

So here's my entry ;D

This is the Giveaway's official banner..

Sweet, eh?

theses are the prizes that are up to be given away...

For this giveaway there is no 1st prize, 2nd prize or 3rd prize...

There is only one winner and that one lucky blogger will get

-a glittery white scrap frame-
-patched heart car-charm-
-a flowery handmade notebook-

The closing date for this giveaway is 22nd April (today) at 11:59pm

Before I end this post, I would like to end it in a form of a poem..

Hope you like it :P

Mia's craft giveaway,

seems like so much fun,

Her crafts are so cute and adorable,

That I couldn't give them away,

If I had won,

I'd keep them in my room,

Cause they are one of a kind and not affordable.

Nite, everyone!!

Failed Study Time

2011-04-22T20:12:00.008+08:00

Hey, so here are some pics when i wanted and "tried" to study :P

I was trying to catch up on my sns and maths since i was awy from class for like 2 weeks (debate practice and debate comp.) so yea.. i fell very far behind.. even after one week, i still havent finished all the homewrk yet.. but Im trying and thats what counts... right?? XDD anyways.. this was taken on the election day... I seriously failed at studying that day.. Atleast i succeeded on camwhoring like 6 pics?? :D I'm so ashamed of my short attention span.. but wadevr.. everyone has their weak points eh?? So, yea.. here they are... Hope you like 'em

this was like the first pic I took that day... and

it was edited into this...

Pretending to study for the cammie XD

More pretending... ^_^

My math ref book :P

My messy bed...

Stuff i cam-whored with at 2am...

Useless Campaigns for Elections

2011-04-16T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hey semua... pasal sy ckp bhsa M'sia?? Idk... rasa mok buat la kan?? pa slhnya?

Anyways.. moving on... Tomorrow is the elections... Elections for what? I'm not sure but im sure it's gonna determine who will be our leaders in the future...so yea, its big?? I'm not sure if it is advisable to use the real competing parties names so, Ill just call them A and B, oky??

Before i continue any further, I must say that this post is about my opinions and my opinions alone... It is not meant to side anyone and turn anyone against the government or anything...

I'm just voicing out my opinions, if you want to see wat I have to say, go ahead and read.

A- a party that has ruled for 30-40 years...most of the leaders are now believed corrupted

B- a party that has been going against "A" for around 30 years...

I'm not gonna say who i believe will win or who I, if i could, vote for...

This post is not gonna mention the pros and cons of both sides.. well maybe some will slip out but the main intention for this post is to try and talk sense about this year's campaigns... in my 14 years of living, I've never seen a campaign so freaking competitive with each other....

Before this, the parties would only pass fliers, put up a few flags, a few banners and that was it...

but this year.. WOAH!!!! u will not believe it.. in this little city, at the sides of the roads are signs everywhere!!! at our roundabout, Huge billboards.. and u know wat's worse?? They're not only promoting themselves.. they're actually DISSING each other... I mean ... WHAT THE HELL.. i was so surprised that our leaders for 30 years and the ones that want to be our leaders would be so immature...

Everyday there are new posters, banners, billboards.. mocking each other.. dissing each other.. I feel so embarrassed just looking at them.. I mean if they were kids.. its okay.. these are not even adults... they're freaking OLD!!! and they're arguing like toddlers argue over a toy... Mature adults are suppose to have a clean campaign but no.. they're playing dirty... IN PUBLIC....

Making jokes and insulting the other party.. that it isn't even funny.. i mean what they say are funny but it's too much!! get it? too many!! Leaders, please... GROW UP!!! How can I trust you to rule the country when you fight like kids? I'm 14 and even i don't fight like that..

Damn... this week, every single morning and afternoon or pretty much whenever im on the road, i will see billboards etc etc of these politicians everywhere.. every single corner.... banners tied above of other banners.. billboards above billboards... and where are they getting the money to make these from?? i believe you can think yourselves... won't it be of better use if they save all the freaking money that they've spent and stop harming our environment by sticking wood and what not into our once clear and beautiful green patches of grass?? and the money, why not use the money used to make those insulting banners and put it for better use?? Give it to the needy, buy supplies for the poor etc etc... won't that be better?? won't that make the citizens appreciate you more?? won't that be YOUR JOB?!! You're suppose to take care of the people.. that's why they have voted for you.. you are suppose to lead us.. take care of us.. is putting up these useless ads showing that you've done a good job? huh?? if it is anything, it is showing bad example to the future leaders of the country.. you're showing children that even adults act like that.. even my brother alone is following the banners and insulting people with those SAME WORDS... HOW IS THAT HELPING THE PEOPLE IN ANY POSITIVE WAY?? and do you seriously think by posting hundreds pictures of yourselves will make people like you more?? do you think women would be like "omg, he's so hawt.. imma voting for him cause he's so cute" HELL NO... puppies and kittens are cute.. politicians aren't... they're old >.< how is old cute in anyway??

Ughh... the truth is the more i see their banners and faces on the roads, the more i think of the money spent on those useless junk.. the banners are gonna be taken down and thrown awy tomorrow, so what's the point of printing so many?? It's practically throwing cash in to burning flames of fire!! see? pointless... do you honestly think showing ur face and dissing the other parties will make the people love you more?? do you think that showing the people this childish way of fighting will make people go "Oooo.. this guy knows how to insult people, I'm totally voting for him" If you do, the wake up leaders... Even my 10 year old brother knows better than that... and let me tell you, he isn't the sharpest knife the in drawer...

Just think about it... Is my opinion relevant?? That's up to you, readers...

I'm out.

Kuching Trip Pictures

2011-04-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

Here are some pics of our trip.. this is just a few cause it's taking too long to upload all of em.. if u wanna see the rest, u can just go to my fb page and view them... hope you enjoy =D

D.E.B.A.T.E~!!!

2011-04-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

Hey all... I have been away from bloggie for like 2 weeks?? wanna know why?

Well, I don't really care if u wanna know or not cause im gonna tell u!! haha!! I was in... (drum rolls) Kuching!!!! why? let me tell you a story, young grasshopper... lol.. i felt kinda wise for a moment there... excuse my weirdness today, I feel kinda high =D hope you don't mind..

okay... we found out about the "6th Swinburne Debate Competition" on the... 28th of March which was pretty late.. actually "pretty" late is an understatement... SUPER late would be more appropriate... while other schools found out about this competition like... a month earlier.. get it? A WHOLE mother $^%-ing month.... okay so you get it right? it was a pretty tight and slim gig...

and the teachers... oh god the teachers didnt encourage us to go... actually again "didn't encourage" was an understatement.. they "discouraged" us.. they were like "better don't go" "you must rmb, you are bringing to school's name" "you can't go there just for exposure" "Are you sure you wanna put the school's name on the line just for this?" "it will be very difficult since you only have less than a week" "you sure you up for this?" etc etc... many discouragements.. I even gave up at one point but our seniors kept pushing us forward... when we were down they gave us the pushes we needed to get back on the horses and ride that sucker... i guess all im saying is that.. our seniors played the bigger role in helping us then our teachers cause when the world was putting us down, they stood up for us... they were the ones that believed in us... that made me and i believe all of us juniors want to pay them back by doing our best at the competition... So I guess without wasting anymore time, Ill tell you about our experience

okay so u know that we received the stuff late etc etc... I will now introduce to you our Debate team =D

there's.... Adeela, Daphne, Constance, Amanda, Clara, Linley, Me, Amalia, Kristine, Alexandra, Ashley, Kiwi and Cornelius...

Senior Speakers - Constance, Adeela, Daphne
Junior Speakers- me, Amalia, Linley
Reserves - Amanda (senior) Kris (Junior) Clara (senior)
Research team (didn't go to Kch) - Alexandra, Ashley, Kiwi, Cornelius

So, yea those are our members... we have many new members since last year.. we lost some but gained a lot more... anyways we got to Kch on the 3rd of April... other schools from Miri that went to that competition was St Columba (the school I was accepted in, rmb?) and Kolej (the school with most of my friends)

We had lots of fun la... ate lots of chicken :P and yea... everything was awesome.. although i missed my family, I kept telling myself someday when I grow up, ill have to leave them and stay in a hostel like this anyways so why don't i use this opportunity to get used to it? and i did.. it was really fun... and the funny thing is that i got a single room.. meaning a room for one person to live in.. ONLY one... but on the 1st, 2nd and 3rd night, amalia slept in my room... on the 4th night... Kris had a problem w her room so adeela and kris joined us... so 4 ppl we're sleeping in my suppose-to-be-for-one-person room and on the last night... Kris wasn't with us.. she had a problem and had to go to the hospital so there were 3 ppl in my room that night.. I won't lie... Kris scared me with her "condition"... like for example the last day of our debating, we had 2 more matches the first one was with St. Columba C (arissa was in it) but we won... I managed to carry out my role... i quote Linley said "perfect" and the judges for the first time praised me for my PM speech.... I was overjoyed, u know? i was so fcking happy that after so mny years, my team was the one that managed to beat st columba.. not that I have anything against that school.. i mean by right im suppose to be in that school, i was accepted and everything... I had like this interview thing with Puan Robinate?(im not sure how to spell her name) that school is awesome... but u get me right? our seniors have been telling us how strong their team is and stuff and i know their experienced speakers just graduated last year so they are all newbies but guess wat?? so are we... so that makes it fair, i guess?? anyways... when we got back to the hall after our happy victory... well, let's just say the happiness did not last... Clara came up and told me that Kris had run out halfway thru their oral adjudication... umm.. let me clearify why this is an awful thing.. Kris is a diabetes patient... and she is like an experiment for the doctors in Sarawak and Sabah... cause u see, she's the first person in Sarawak and Sabah to use this insulin-injecting-machine-thing... so yea.. and the night before she had explained what would happen if there was too much or too little insulin in her body.... in a few words it would most likely lead to.... Faint -> Coma -> Death.... See how dangerous that is?? anyways i cried a lot.. while looking for Kris and we finally found her lying down on her bed back at the hostel.. me and Adeela got there first.. and let me tell u, my heart dropped when i saw her.. cause she was lying on the bed, motionless and it looked as if she was dead... but a few secs later she moved and... woke up... gosh... i wasn't crying then but when i saw her... i bursted into tears.. i was so relieved that she was okay.. the images in my mind.. images of her maybe fainted and motionless on the road or in a toilet all flooded my mind and watching her perfectly safe.. the relief... gosh i couldn't take it.. the whole 2 weeks was giving me so much stress that even when i slept early, i still got pimples but the thing with Kris pushed me pass my limit.. I broke down.. i literally cried like there was no tomorrow... later on the rest of the team came, followed by the BSMM team and then teacher... we were told to go back to the hall.. when we were back in the hall.. i was the only one still crying.. the rest had dried their eyes and everything.... they all looked perfectly normal.. i was the only one looking as fugly as hell.... and guess what? we had more "good" news.. our next opponent would be St. Co D... =.=" and we were Oppo.. im not good at oppo... and my head felt like exploding and woo... the pressure was really getting to me.. the stress everything.. i felt dizzy and... other stuff... bottom line, i wasn't ready to take on a match esp a strong opponent.. Clara, Constance and Linley hugged me and kept telling me that everything would be okay.... that i should stop... lastly, i did... but all thru out the 30 mins i was shaking.. but i believe i did a good job hiding it from the others cause they didnt seem to see it at all....

To be continued... lol

An Unforgettable Evening

2011-03-26T13:48:00.003+08:00

On Thurday dated... 24th March 2011... something amazing happened...

Mummy called daddy and "asked him out'

So me and mummy went there la.. she brought me along cause she said ever since i was young, my daddy would control his anger and not do something frightening when the kids were around.. so yea, thats why i was there... but daddy didnt know that i was going and before the dinner, i called him, he still didnt tell us anything about the dinner..

dad was late... so i called him up and told him that me and mumm was waiting at the imperial restaurant and he was like 'oh.. I just arrived at Grand Palace oo, okay ill be there soon. Sorry i messed up" dad didnt sound all too thrilled about me being at dinner with them.. i felt so bad..

when he finally arrived he was like sort of fake smiling at me.. i duno maybe im paranoid but i think that was wat i saw...

the first thing my mummy said to him was "lu jiak ho beh" meaning "have you eaten yet?" and he answered "a boi" which means "not yet"

Anyways we ordered food.. dad ordered two rounds.. haha

I was kind of afraid the whole time.. when i saw them talk and the weren't smiling... if the both disagreed on something I would be thinking like "please don't fight, please don't fight" and then not long after my dad would pull a joke and we'd all laugh... hehe

It was a successful evening.. m mum and dad agreed as well... what sucked tho was the music it was all sad like "baby come back to me... i love u more and more everyday" and stuff like that..

but it was awesome... to see them together after 6 years was really a happy moment for me..

and when it was over, i secretly cried a little in the car... I wished the night never needed to end... I wish my siblings could have seen them like dat... Here are some piccies.... XDD

damn.. im having trouble uplading it again.. I'll upload it someother time in this post, k?

Peace out~

What I drew today + meaning of it

2011-03-23T15:21:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie!!!
I'm at daddy's today cause he didnt have time to send me back to my mummy's house.. so, I'm bored.. and I was flipping through my file and i saw what i drew today... So, I was like.. hey!! why not scan and post it on fb?! It would be awesome!! but sadly i could not cause of some technical problems... darn!! but since i already scanned it, it would be a waste if the world didnt see my "beautiful art"... lol... anyways I'm waiting for it to be uploaded to blogger... wonder why it's taking longer than usual >.< lag =".=":">.< sad...

NTS: Note To Self

2011-03-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

Note to self: Change playlist...

Why? Cause i was feeling sad and emo and then as you all know that at the moment the first on my blog playlist is "JUST A DREAM" so it was like so cun and so emo for me... It made me feel crappier than i already felt.. I really should change it.. At first i felt like crap now i feel like bullshit which is a bit different a little bit i guess cause.. at first I felt like just crap which means shit/poop and it could have meant anyone or anything's poop but now i feel like bullshit which summarizes that i feel like the male cow's poop... Great... Im demoralizing myself T.T Could life get worse??

I'm just gonna lie down and read my book....

Psstt.. btw, 3 letters

FML

It doesn't make sense

2011-03-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

I've finally gotten what I thought I wanted for months... Well... wanted at times... but now that I finally have it.. why does it feel so wrong??

Why does it feel like something's missing? What should I do?

I'm afraid of turning on my phone because of the thing that might be there.... or afraid of the things that might not be there....

Confused chick is out...

Start of the holidays Sickness =.=

2011-03-15T08:33:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie~~
I'm am like majorly sick.. seriously.. I woke up with a tummyache yesterday and around 15 minutes to 12 pm i puked my whole breakfast out... and trust me it was a hell lot..
But Bibi took care of me... I kept calling him.. I don't know why.. I was so sick, I just followed what I felt and I felt like I needed him...
Anyways... I was afraid to eat cause I feared I might puke again... but it turned out alright.. I only drank a bowl of soup... but then last night at around 2.30 am I woke up and puked...
It hurt so bad T_T I hate puking!!!
I plan to go to the doctor later.. Hope everything will be okay...
Pray for me all
;D

The Love that I'm trying to get over....

2011-03-13T14:54:00.002+08:00

I was cleaning up my lappy.. like i said.. and look what I found...

Its a collage i made for Bibi.. I took the pictures from the times we webcam-ed with each other and i made it into a collage... I miss those times...

too bad they're over.. I'm still trying to move on.....

I just thought this pic deserves a place on my blog since it's still a part of my heart...

Just some art

2011-03-13T14:17:00.003+08:00

Oh, I wanna show some of the pictures Xavier sent me last year...

He CLAIMS that he drew them.. but I'm not so sure about that but anyways.. here they are...Enjoy~~

Me and bibi when we grow old.. haha XD

A young version of Me ;D

Me... notice how the sling bag is missing...

Just random doodles~~

they really are magnificent....

Cleaning Up My Lappy~

2011-03-13T14:09:00.001+08:00

Hey all... It's 2.09 pm in the afternoon..

I'm lying on my bed... with a cold =.=" Awesome huh??

I get sick at the start of my holiday? So, anyways... I'm transferring some stuff from my C drive to my D drive cause it's getting pretty full... And It's like freaking blinking RED...

Im currently transferring some pics.. I never realised I had so many pics.. Hmm... What should I do with them?? Buy CDs and put the inside?? I don't know but I seriously need to empty my lappy.. It's getting too full!!!

I'm also trying to download new fonts for my lappy.. cause.. I think its cool?? and if I manage to get Sony Vegas this week, I'm gonna continue making videos again... my last vid was in 2009 o.0

So long already right?? I seriously need to hurry up and make em.. Hope I succefully get Sony Vegas.. Pray for me..

Oh! It's done pasting...oky need to transfer more shit XDD

Bye~ for now...

Me, Myself and I

2011-03-12T11:00:00.002+08:00

Ta-da!! that's me... in make-up... you can't really see it well.... but atleast u can see some of the eyeshadow right??
Peichen jie jie helped me put it on... what? u dont expect me to be able to put it on myself...
My style may have changed quite a lot but the Tomgirl in me is still within.....
It still exists... and im proud of it cause it's part of who I am XD
So, I guess now im a tomboy that likes to wear girl t-shirts out but at home still boy t-shirts...
Old habits die hard... or they don't die at all ;D

Oh, btw I just made twitter 2 months ago? i wasn't very active but i plan to be... sooon..
when more ppl follow me so.. feel free to follow me on twitter "Yve Vonn"
Bye!!!

The cuts on Valentine's

2011-03-11T22:44:00.004+08:00

Remember I told you 'he' gave me cuts on valentine's day's week??

I've got some piccies... wanna see?? they were small but painful...

Now it doesn't hurt anymore but there are scars.. it's okay i guess.. I never planned to be a hand model anyways... I wear bracelets and stuff as often as possible so that i don't accidently look at the scars... but sometimes it doesn't work... anyways.. here they are.....

My elbow

My wrist.. obviously...

Nvmla... Just wanted to put them up to rmb in the future... I don't feel like cursing him anymore.. what use does it do?? He lied... that's it... end of story...

Now I have a scar that haunts me... I just hope it goes away soon...

What i texted...

2011-03-11T22:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i texted 'him' and this is what I said....

"You pulled me to you with my poorly repaired heart,

When I trusted you with it,

You slowly took off the ugly bandages and stitches that held it together,

and took it apart,

Fixed it with glue you did,

and healed it with love,

My heart was all yours,

trust, love and hope all was with you,

but shattered was my heart to learn the real you within,

For i never would've guessed there was a devil within.

A king you thought you were and a slave was I,

For a dog you've treated me,

coldness, heartlessness saw I in you,

But the pieces of my shattered heart,

Tho not brightly,

Glows still and only for you~

Thanks You, Readers :D

2011-03-11T21:50:00.003+08:00

Hey bloggie.. I just read the msgs ppl left me on the chatbox and their all postivie :D

Im glad that people are reading what i put up...

I wanna thank you all for ur support, I'm happy that i'm able to help you with my problems?? I guess?

I really appreciate your messages honestly.. It makes me feel less lonely.. when i read them I don't feel like im the only one against the world... So thanks for that...

And I've read that some of you wan me to give u tips?? and visit back ur site??

well if about the tips.. you could just comment in the chat box and ill reply you ASAP and ur site... I suggest after you leave ur appreciated msg to me, u put ur link at the bck of ur msg like ... "(stuff you wanna say to me) http://......." like dat.. i'm sorry but I honestly dont know how to view ur link from the chatbox.. I've tried but it says like "this feature is not available in my country or something"

I really wanna view ur blogs but i cant so if u could leave ur link behind ur comment, i will definitely go see it...

Thanks you for your support all!!

You guys Rock!!

And this lil pup agrees with me too!! ;D

Wat's up

2011-02-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

hey bloggie... it's 6.58 pm, saturday, 19th Feb. I just finished taking a 45 minute bath... unbelievable right?? well it cause... i cried in there... Im am now biting my towel... i can't stand it...

wait i wanna do something... done... that idiot... nvr listen to my advice.. i told him to chg his password... fcking stupid.. anyways.. i feel so much better :D i've deleted all the msgs ive sent him on fb... the pics that involve me... :) i don't know while i was doing that.. i felt better and better... I had planned to tell u guys a story.. but i don't think i have to now.. I feel much better ;)

just a few words i guess..

the mother fcker gave me 2 cuts and a bruise on 16th feb... on 13th feb he promised me he'd do many things for me on the 14th (valentine's day) well guess wat?? I got slapped by him.. hit by him... bullied... at that moment all i could think abt in my head was... "why was i stupid to believe he'd follow thru with his promise again..."

i dont have to mood to write anymore..

Chinese New Year

2011-02-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

It is now 10.05 am, Saturday, 5^th of February. Today is the day our trip to Kuching ends. As you may not know I was at Kuching since the 1^st of Feb until now. We are currently at the airport waiting to drop our baggage. I have nothing to do so, I decided to blog…

Hye all!! Long time no post liao. Many things that happened even before the last blog post I haven’t mentioned about. I guess I’ll talk about my trip first. XDD I’ll cover up the rest some other time la, k?

Hmm…. On the 1^st of Feb we all woke up quite early and went out to eat at “Everyday Café”. It’s doesn’t really stand out in my town but my younger sibs love a dish there.. Hahax... As we were about to leave my sis was rushing to finish her drink and accidently spilled it on her shirt and pants… Poor girl. We went home and prepared everything to leave. Of course the bags were already packed the night before. But we didn’t put in the chargers, shoes and some other stuff until that morning. Yian arrived not long after to bring us to the airport… PS. He no longer looks EMO!! Hahax.. Maybe it’s part of his new job’s qualifications… LIKE

Must have taken SPM
Above 18 years of age
No working exp required
Must not own EMO hairstyle LMAO

Anyways.. I side-tracked… again =.=””

So we’ve been sleeping in Peichen’s house the last few days and I think it really made us closer. I mean we only see each other once every 2 years. Can you believe that? Everyone is now asking us to come back next year. All I do is just smile and nod… I mean I already know I can’t but how do I tell them??

We camwhored a lot with Peichen… She has most of the piccies in her cam. Some of mine and hers have already been uploaded to Facebook… Wanna check them out?? Go see my fb page lo.. :P haha… We had so much fun over at Peichen’s. Me and my sis went to her dad’s side of the family’s CNY dinner too… My grandma is pretty smart, u know? She knows that her daughter’s husband’s family will want them to go for the family dinner but if she has a family dinner too that will just cause arguments among her daughters and their husbands… So instead of Dinner she makes it Lunch. So, the we all go to my grandma’s for lunch then my cousins will go to their grandparent’s for dinner. Awesome, right??

Oops.. Mum just finished dropping our luggage.. I gtg..

Bye all!! I will post more later :PP

My Wonder Yesterday ♥

2011-02-13T14:12:00.003+08:00

It is currently 2.13 pm, Sunday!!!
Yesterday was pretty Cool!!!
I was selected to go for this programme @ Curtin!!!
Umm...
What do I talk about yesterday??
I wan to rmb it from head the bottom but apparently I left my notebook upstairs so i guess ill just mention some stuff...
The programme was originally for form 5 students... Other schools sent their form 5 students but Chung Hua for some reason sent form 4 and form 2 as well... why? no idea...
When I first found that out, i was like so embarrassed you know the feeling like ur not suppose to be a place and u actually are it felt just like a 50 yr old man in kindy class... awkward, right??
I met many new friends... I talked... a lot that day.. =.="" hahaxx.. i guess i felt i might never see these people again...i might as well get to know them as much as i can and not be a little good for nothing shy kitty.. so i did it.. I made many new friends... I spoke to them like I knew them since forever.. I had a really good time.. They we're all also really friendly to me.. One of them even asked me how come I wasn't shy talking to people older than me... Everyone in my group was older that me..... All of them form 5 besides Me and Kevin Yapp (4s2) They said we were smaller and smallest!!! Wakakaka~~~
I sat next to Kevin in the lecture hall?? He seemed really strict at first.. really scary.. I barely dared to look at him but he soon loosened up thanks to my communicating skills... lol??
During the question asking session they ask geo, sj and sns questions... THEY ASK FORM 5 QUESTIONS LEH!! HOW THE -@#$ was i suppose to know the answer to any of those?? I only knew the answer to one which was "In united states, the eagle symbolises freedom" but i dare not say anything since i thought the seniors should have known.. but they didnt so we lost a few marks but it's okay...
Kevin kept singing "like a g6" it was real funny
It was awesome.. At the end of the programme, we had prizes.. 3 hampers were to be given to 3 of the best groups.... and guess what?? MY GROUP WON!!!
none of us expected we would win... when they said "Group D-4" We were all looking at each other.. "he say group 4 ha?? "is it us?" "did we win?" we kept looking at each other and when they repeated the name of our group agn we all got up and got our hamper...
After that i followed the bus back the others. Daddy came to pick me from school...
i was using the bag dad bought for me 2 years ago so he was like...
"this is the bag i bought for u right?" i was like.. "yea" then he asked to see inside it so i unzipped my bag and let him see...lo. then i closed it and daddy asked what was inside it.... i listed the things that were in it lo.. then daddy say " are u sure o not? check agn" when i opened up the bag agn... i saw... (dramatic pause) A BRAND NEW IPOD SHUFFLE!!! its blue in colour!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
he got me exactly what i wanted for my bday... i was so happy~!!! :D
thats all i have for now...
Bye all!!
peace out~!! ♥

Me Gonna Updat3!!!

2011-02-13T13:57:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone!! It's Yvonne here!! XDD
So erm... what to talk about... A lot has happened that I haven't posted about...
Im busy and at the same time lazy :P
Sorry... So um.. about my trip to Kching.. the day we were coming back when my mum was dropping our baggage, i switched on my lappy and typed the post on microsoft word... I can't post it at the moment because my lappy isn't with me but... yea.. ill do it later i guess??
If i remember that is... I'm gonna post about... the Mini-farewell hangout for the Twin and My birthday oh!! and about yesterday first... If i feel like posting something else... its up to me >.<
Time to type!!!
Rocking Out~~~

today...

2011-01-30T09:14:00.002+08:00

Today's the day... The twins are going back today... D:

Their flight is 11.40 plus i think.. I wanted to go to the airport to send them off but i can't make it because I have church =.="

Why?! why?! why?!

I'm losing so many of my best friends in this one weekend...

Ah Biang already left without saying Goodbye on thurs :(

Haih... hope someday i can meet them all agn..

These few days i've been wanting to blog.. but never got to finish..

i have many draft posts at my posts page... cause i keep starting but never finish..

I don't feel like saying much anymore...

I wanna go now... k?

bye bye...

Bye ah biang

Bye Twins...

I miss you :(

Moving...

2011-01-28T22:56:00.001+08:00

I haven't been here for quite awhile now..

It's currently 10.57 pm...

Today is like... the beginning of our 9 days holiday.. but i'm not happy...

I mean how can I be?

My 3 best friends are moving back to KL cause Shell is like trying to cut back so they're sending them back... which sucks for us, their friends, of course..

My homework

2011-01-16T17:44:00.001+08:00

I didnt go to school on fri.. so here's wat i need to knw.. im afraid i might lose it or forget it.. so im just gonna put it here...

and Empat pemborong

And KH do Senaraikan ciri-ciri barang

Perniagaan di dalam negeri ( Perniagaan Tempatan)

And next friday gt KH test

and our new teacher is mahathir

Plus notes that we copy

M3 do 1.4C

Sivik Pg6 Quiz that part

Bm do Komsas(sinopsis) di sebalik wajah Bab1

Science Process Skill pg 2 to 6

It's Time

2011-01-14T18:32:00.002+08:00

I'm depressed...

Just thinking about you makes me wanna cry...

Thinking about you and my heart hurts... so bad..

without you knowing a thing... I'm starting to despise you....

without you realizing... you're hurting me... scar-ing me....

I wanna let you go... I have decided.... It's time to go our separate ways...

I know you won't let me... but I can't go on like this..

it's driving mad.. making me sick...

It pulls my immunity system down.... so I have no choice to say....

I love you... but it's not meant to be...

I'm sorry...

Last day of school

2011-01-14T12:35:00.000+08:00

Hey.

it's... 12.35 pm ... its friday.. so school was out 35 mins ago..

i didnt even go to school today... Like i said yesterday i was in so much fcking pain..

i couldnt even get up this morning.. and when around 8.30 i finally did, i kept stumbling...

whats happening?

My Horrible Pain

2011-01-13T16:25:00.002+08:00

Hey all.. it is now.. 4.25 pm.. and i feel totally exhausted....

I'm listening to Only Girl by Rihanna~ :3

and yea.. My mind is spinning and I have a fcking migraine agn.. curse family curse =.=

anyways... yea.. my stomach aches its definitely not cuz im hungry or wanna shit.. i can assure u that... it hurts at my "girl area" lol.. can I call it that? hope you all don't misunderstand me... XP

so yea... i'm in pain...

Want you to make me feel like im the Only Girl in the world~!!

lol~ so anyways... pain isn't fun.. right? ugh.. =.="

pain pain go awy... come agn.... NEVER!

Oh i forgot to mention my period is 7 days late... yes... 1 week :D isn't that just wonderfuckfully great?! =.=" no.. that was sarcsm.. as much as I hate getting my period... I fcking hate not getting it.. cuz it puts me in so much pain!!! I just wan it to come and get over with it... and leave me the fck alone for a fcking month before bothering me agn!!

Sorry for my language my seriously pissed.. I have hormones and stuff making me sensitive.. if it had come on time.. all this would have ended a few days ago.. but... no.. it has been going on for more than a week!! D:< leh ="=">

Not to mention I had a bad day... i need a haircut too.. You know how i cut my front hair? it was above my eyebrows.. i swear.. but after one week of school it already went below my eyebrow... and now.. its poking my eyes.... curse! curse! curse! lazy wan cut agn bha!! i purposely cut short2 so no need cut so soon =.="

that certainly backfired, huh?

I also cant do my work.. cuz i cant sit up properly... not to mention I have KH tmr!!

argh!! Im so afraid of that teacher.... o.0

You wont believe how scary she is... no matter how sleepy i am.. i force myself to keep awake in her class.. i mean the way i see it.. if i fall asleep she may throw a fcking book at me.. I'm serious...

haha.. there was this time i was SOOOOO sleepy.. i keep ngatuk-ing.. in the end.. i couldn't take it anymore...

everytime she turned around to write something on the board I just let my head fall and close my eyes.. when she starts talking agn. i lift my head up and try my best to open my eyes as wide as possible =.=" of course i didnt learn much that day.. cuz i was too bz concentrating my energy on keeping myself awake and not get caught..

My mum just came home~ yay! so i guess i should go now?

haha..

im still in pain.. oww it hurts to move....

its now 4.37pm

thats all i have for now..

bye!!

Midget Ants across the fields!!

2011-01-11T18:38:00.003+08:00

Hey all!! guess what?! I had another wonderfck-ly boring day at school today!!

yeay~~!! ... haha.. but good news is.. i found out that there is a class having PJ class during chinese period.. so now every Tues i have a class to watch run around the field... haha... I don't know why but at that moment... they reminded me and ants... itty-bitty puny lil ants :3

haha.. there were these few boys running like they were on Fire... it was epic!! so anyways..

Ive got hmwrk.. the BCCC is on.. agn and need to do projects =.= my acc is still not able to masuk the forum.. DAMN.... one year wasted!! arghh!! i wanna post to.. its so unfair :(

So yea~~ Im Von...

School now, Sucks

;)

Who We Are

2011-01-10T17:02:00.003+08:00

It is now 5.03 pm....

and i have just spent the last 1 hour thinking abt exp in st. jo... the changes that have happened... the 6 years i was there.. The fear i had for the principle for the first few weeks of my first year there... my first friend there, Nurin Athirah... my other friend whom mysteriously went missing after primary 1... When I was in the same class with all the smart asses of my year... The new faces and some old ones... The time I first spoke to the girls that was sitting at my seat during morning session... I remembered how shy I was... I was only 8 and they were 11... I had forgotten to bring back my stuff the day before and they were real sweet to just wait there till i arrived to return the things back to me to make sure no one else would take it. That was the year I met and hated si pencuci Fab aka. Fabron :D The year I met and got irritated by the two besties who sat on my left back and right back of me... iaitu.. Lee Ba Boon but now we call him "oily" (OI-LEE), stick, twig or... Stwig XDD I just realised how many people dropped in and out of the 'smart asses" class.. but yet every year.. so many remained... The ones that i remember that was in the same class with me for all the 6 years are.. Jordan, Awang, Afiqah, Mia ( duh!), Sheena (chocolate ice-cream) , Dominica, and Annie? others i dont rmb :P same class for 5 years.. thats one hella of a long list... =.=" cause u see, pri 2 we susun2 dy~~ When I was pri 3 I sat near Elvis.. that dude was rich.. seriously.. I rmb teasing him A LOT.. There was this time I told him i was thirsty and he didnt wanna share with me his water.. which was A LOT!! so i told him to pour some into my cupped hands.. he did.. (stupid move) the next moment.. his face was wet :P Mr. 1 saw me.. but didnt tegur me~~ or maybe he didn't see? That will forever remain a mystery.. haha!! I rmb how P. Ata kept scaring us abt the exam and not being able to enter the smart ass class in p4.. she was like "if u don't get 9 over 10 for this section and 18 over 20 for this section... ahh... jgn hrp la masuk class C thn depan!" That liar =.=" but anyways in p4 C class was no more the best.. C was best cause it stood for CLEVER, CERDIK and other stuff? but somehow in the year 2007 they decided to move the smartasses to 4E which stood for Excellent... I rmb having this teacher who was always like.."jgn buat sikap buruk la.. ni bkn class 4a, b, c, d... ni class EXCELLENT-EH!!!" I loved that teacher.. I never got bored in his class.. so funny esp when he bullied the seniors that came to our class to make announcements... I rmb-ed the time Rach told me her "feelings for Larry"... I rmbed the time I joined "Cacing and 'd' gang".... It was fun.. of course it didnt last long since... well.. lets just say I cant really stick to just one gang :) im a part of all the gangs in the class.. What I love abt my class is that... they don;t look down on u cause ur different.. you're not judge by what you are.. weather what race, religion, skin colour, hair colour, type of hair, ur beauty, ur macho-ness ;) wdv all those don't make us judge u... we see WHO you are.. Not WHAT you are... There is no general thing abt any gang or any group.. cause we understand everyone is unique in their own way... everyone is special and has a worth in this world... everyone is good at something... It's just the matter of trying to find that something instead of closing the book without even reading the second page... Everyone will hurt us someday.. It's just the matter if they're worth it or not.. and my besties... my friends.. my parents... my brothers and sisters from my HUGE family... you're all worth the pain cause you healed my biggest pain I had to feel in my life... which was my family breaking up... but God gave me you guys to make me realise... that I'm still part of a family... even tho we're not related by blood, we are related by our hearts... I guess you can say our differences brought us together and held us together to this very day....

I love you, guys!! Mwahxx

XOXO

Posted at 9.04pm

2011-01-09T21:00:00.003+08:00

Hey.. it is cun2 9.00 pm~~

sup??

sup ayam.. sup ikan.. sup ABC :P

hahaha!!

So yea.. I was like sick practically the whole day =.=

damn.. migraine and shit

But im better now.... im sick.. lalala~~

i got flu, cough and migraine after i cried that day..

why? I dont know...

I think im kinda feverish as well...

well just now my mum bought new clothes..

so she was like checking out her wardrobe.. and gave me lots of camisoles... a cover all jacket, and half bodied coat thing? haha.. me got new stuff to wear~~ then on cny i already got a lot of new clothes :3 Me got many stuff.. XDD

yea yea yea!!

My Prayer

2011-01-08T20:35:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord Jesus...

My Bibi just got back from the court... His parents forgot to leave the gate for him to get him in so he is now stuck outside the house... Dear God, I know u already know what happened... I pray that your hand of mercy will be on him Lord... Protect him from any evil that may be lurking the shadows.... Jesus... I know I have sinned... I pray to be cleansed and forgiven for them once again... I know he's hurt me as well... May his sins be forgiven... May the scars be a lesson to me... May the memories be a reminder and may the tears be the price for the mistakes.... I pray that you will protect my family, Bibi and his family and myself as well....

In Jesus's name I pray...

-Amen-

First Weekend after school of the year~!

2011-01-08T12:20:00.007+08:00

Hey guys..

It's finally the weekend!!! yay!!! Raise yo hands up in the air if you love the weekends!!!! :D

ok.. i dono wat to do with my hands in the air right now.. so put em' down.. Ill figure it our later~~

So hmm...

I woke up this morning and went to my dad's house.. It sucked cause when I was in the car I was still sleepy but couldn;t sleep no more.. so I thought of the song "Tik Tok" by Kesha and starting singing in my head/heart?

I made it up as I went along... It was pretty easy since I can rmb the beats just fine...

Woke up this morning feeling like... shit

Got out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom door

Got a knock on the door while I was brushing my teeth

Why can't i just be left...left in my bed?

haha... I literally made that up in the car... amazing what a crazy chick can do half asleep, huh?

I just asked my sis and she said it matches... Yay!! my weirdness ;)

I didnt continue after that tho cuz my dad started talking to us...

Well it's like... 12.33 pm

We went out to catch grasshoppers just now.. wakakaka~~~

I persuaded my cousins and sibs to teman me~~~

My garden is packed with butterflies and grasshoppers!!

I even tryed... u knw the scene in movies where people run across a beautiful medow and butterflies and bugs fly and hop and stuff?

Yea.. tried it.. felt awesome!! It was as if i was in an EPIC movie~~

So.. yea.. the thing abt yesterday... I dont feel like mentioning it...

Yea... He slammed a water bottle on my left arm and shit.....

I cried... in school.. god it was embarrassing....

Thank god that it was in chung hua and in my class... So... no bigs ;)

My rep. is still tight, homie!!!

I'm out~

2011-01-07T19:45:00.002+08:00

Must Watch

-Food from JZ-

2011-01-07T18:40:00.003+08:00

Hey all... it's 6.43 pm.. Jun Zhi just came to my house... sometime ago??

He handed me a 2 bars of tobelrone chocoate, a grape flavoured sugus and lime flavored Vita-C?? ( im not sure la... ) i think its his fav or something... it's nice tho...

I think he might feel bad? or worried about me..

C'mon pick a guess... Ill tell you why in the next post la k? I dont feel like typing it out now..

I don wanna cry infront of the lappy, now do i?

haha.. see me... I took pics?? My mind can't think straight so i do shitty stuff..

Dont blame me.. ^_^"

St Jo, My Home.... Chung Hua? My Hell on Earth

2011-01-07T17:48:00.003+08:00

I couldn't agree with this mug anymore... My "old school" was like a heaven to me it was and still is MY family... A place i felt safe... While the $%^#-ing ( I don't wanna curse in big letters) school i'm in now.. is like a living hell to me....

Hey everyone.. It is currently 5.51 pm, Friday... which means I just finished the first (censored) week of school... and boy.. was it GREAT!!! It was simply.. wonderfuck =.=

haih... This one week has felt like one year..literally!! On the second day of school I was already checking my calender for the next holiday =.=" Sadly.. no luck... Need bout 2 weeks plus for the next one? so... If 2 days feels like a year.... 10 divides by 2 is 5 years.....

I'mma be in school for mentally 5 years before the next *tutting..* holiday.... I'm gonna die leh...

Who wanna dig my grave? Ill pay u... some vegetables cause my late-bunnies would have done the exact same thing for that pay :D

Man, it's getting exhausting acting innocent.. I have punched anyone in over a year!! can you believe it? gimme a loud applause :)

Oh, btw Defilia and Alexandra are here and they're in 1A.. just like me.. they feel like complete aliens.. haha.. glad im not the only one then ;)

2011-01-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

This is me the day I cut my hair..

haha... the main thing was y hair.. but I got bored.. So I took more shots than I was suppose to... check out my horrible picture taking XDD

Hope u like blurr pics all!!

I'm out~~

-A problemed smile 2-

2011-01-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

About my happiness again....

Do you think it's possible that i havent been happy in such a long time that i forgot what it is?

I forgot the feeling of being happy.... I forgot the feeling of smiling out of pure happiness...

Not a smirk or a sarcastic smile... And especially not a fake smile...

Will I ever be able to be happy again? Will I have to Fake Smile at my wedding?

Will I have to Fake smile all through out my life?

I remember for many years I couldn't smile.. Well... I could be it wasnt nice...

it was ugly... I even had to practice smiling...

Yes... I'm serious.. I had to PRACTICE SMILING...

I actually had to practice to do the easiest thing in this world....

I finally managed to make my smile look natural, original and realistic... by the time i was 12

before that... when i was still practising it... it got better and better everyday....

and now... I have a beautiful smile....

The saddest thing is that EVERYONE FALLS FOR MY FAKE SMILE....

my parents... my sibs... my bestfriends.... bibi... all of them....

was fooled by the biggest lie on my face....

-A Problemed Smile-

2011-01-04T21:02:00.003+08:00

Haih... It's happened again..

we are in a fight agn.. really.. why do I bother?

anyways.. yea.. I need to remind myself to go to the helpers meeting on sat and sun..

damn... Why why why!!!

why must they call me back?!!

Didnt they get the msg when i didnt return the texts and calls? o.0""

haih... nvmla.. another year... of S.H.I.T

I think I have a problem... I can't stay be truly happy....

For so long.... I have been faking my smiles....

During my bday.. i got presents... the smiles and thank you's i gave them were all fake...

When my mum got me souveniers... i was happy on the inside but that happiness wasn't big even to show even a glimpse of a true smile on my face....

There has to be something wrong with me..

No matter what people do.. they cannot earn a "i am totally 100% happy" smile from me...

I dont know why...

Do i need therapy or something?

and after I got to CH it just got worse...

atleast in St Jo I would sometimes come real close...

Now it's all so far awy frm even a smile...

I give fake smiles... false happiness...

even Bibi can't tell when im truly happy... because....

he has never made me truly happy...

Today i tried to be happy with him... it didn't work...

Nthing works!!

D: you know how fkcing fustrating it is?!!

Why can't I be happy? huh?!

Why?! Is it cause my life's not worth living?

I don;t know... but when I show my true feelings...

it always causes problems between me and Bibi...

So why should I tell the truth and cause problems? I might as well live the lie I live and just go on with it...

Besides... I've been doing it for years right? What harm could it do if i continue doing it the rest of my life?

Yes, Id probably go fcking MAD and stuff.. but by then who would know? who would give a damn???

I will be known as the happiest person on earth without anyone knowing the sadness and sorrow killing me inside... something no one has ever been able to take away....

When i really wan something and i get it... im happy... but like i said its not enough to make me smile unconsciously... why? I don't know... but if u see my pics... i fake smile pretty damn good...

Don chu think?? XPP

Haih... i better go do my sns..

Bye all!!

nice~~

2011-01-03T16:36:00.001+08:00

Posted at 9.48 pm

2011-01-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hey blog.. Now its 9.42 pm..

rushing for time..

Just now i spent 3 hours packing and ended up with 5 bags, two hangers of clothes and a plastic bag of my school shoe..

When I got to my mum's house.. Unpacking time!! damn ==

haha.. thats my life~~

Anyways.. i cut my hair this afternoon.. So the front is like.. short?

I hope it doesnt grow that fast.. cause i very malas wan cut hair bha.. so.. yea

My cam is our of batt.. so ill take a pic tmr and post it here, k?

I promise ;)

my bag is packed and everything.. hope everything goes smoothly for me yea...

:D ohya and Flying monkey aka. Xavier told me to take notes on class tmr cause he has some kind of band thing i guess?

Oky its.. 9.45 pm i gotta go..

My mum has made an annoying curfew for us.. haih..

wat to do? No choice to follow.. 10 pm lights off D:

hope she will loosen it a bit in a few months..

tmr start using bus agn...

Oh well... Ive done it since I was 8..

Just go along la.. D:

bye2 air conditioned car

thats all i have for now..

bye~~

yea~ yea~ yea~

New Year

2011-01-01T18:54:00.002+08:00

Its currently 6.55 pm... I have already taken my bath of course..

Haha just now, when i came out i curi makan a tofu~

Bad idea...

the bad part wasn't that I stole the tofu... It was that i stole it without getting something to carry it... :P

so i had some difficulty keeping it in my hands... exchanging it from my left to right right to left hand .. :P

Today is New Year!! Fireworks please? (boom! boom! boom!)

hehehe~~ omg just realised... i forgot to think abt my New Year Resolution... how?

umm.. wat i wanna do this year...

Ill get back to you on that.. Ill just sleep on it..

I need to remember to get my family essay done by Mon which is 2 days from now for the bccc

and... ohya!! I need to return RM 2 to Aaron...

Must remember... tkt he act like A Long =.= bring pisau cari me haha!!

I wonder how he knew me and my name? Mysteries will remain mysteriesss i guess.

UNLESS!!!!

Yvonne Si Gaggo goes and ask... XDD

haha...

Dinnertime~~ Bye!!